I miss u....

I feel like i am dying inside. The pain inside if me is unbearable yet i am living it again and again. Where are you ? What are you doing ? Do you even think about me? I wanna be with you. I need you here with me just so i won't do anything stupid. You were the one who kept me in check. Are you happy with the guy you are going to marry? Does he make you feel like you are the queen and he is your king? And most of all, are you happy ?

All these questions and my imagination is giving me the pain, i don't want to bear. There is nothing i wouldn't do to win you back. I started smoking again. I don't want to and yet i do it only because you are not with me and it is killing me slowly. I miss you, i miss holding you in my arms and it gives me goosebumps every time i imagine you with me.

It was not so long ago when i first saw you and we talked on that very bus stand where you were waiting for the same bus to arrive as me. I didn't have the courage to ask you out and yet i couldn't stop looking at you like you mean the world to me. You are the one i want to have the kids with and you are the only one i want to marry. All of my thoughts were about you and all these thoughts tell me that you are mine. You will be mine and i will be yours.