born and lone

so many years have passed and you know what I still remember my birth precisely, don't get astonished when you know that l remember every single detail that had happened to me as an infant after and before birth .

Voices, I heard when I had been living in my mother's womb and believe me if l told you that it wasn't a narrow or limited place but it looked like a huge ethereal space for me with no walls or doors just white fog and l was floating in .

Dreams and only dreams that had come to me and were showing me physical staff that l don't know or recognize and one of those staff my body as an infant laying down with no single movement in that narrow womb and I was in a higher place watching that like a movie theatre .

of course their were no mirrors but l had imagined my self as a young man was waiting his ressurection .

or so to speak "born " .

confused thought "what am i "

infant , kid, teenager , adult or what

"you are a human being who is being ruled with laws that's time not exist in" a hoarse voice shouted .

what was that voice and how he had read my thoughts

calls from spiritual beings that l didn't see but l was hearing them well and moreover shadows always come to me talk to me and they were doing something like a review of stuff will happen to me after birth and the strange thing l was knowing that stuff very well before they had been telling me

they told me my choices and reactions and i told them with an able fluent tongue that "I will do only and just only what i want to do" so leave me alone .

they said " surely you will take those choices " and i told them how that can be most of those choices are wrong and also are not for me.

"you will be the same person but in another phase " they said and moreover " even your thoughts that you believe now will all be forgotten ".

I was astonished and looked at them with mystery and before I asked they gave me a rolled paper and leave .