me

I'm getting frustrated of losing all the time over Lisa. She'd stolen alot from me from Franco to Jeffrey even my brother and Andrei. She always left a fishy scent around the men she met including the men around me. She's my nemesis.

I hate to compare myself to her, but I'm way better than her in any way. If only I will dress like her and put the same amount of make up. It's just not my personality to do so. From now on I'm on my own. I should not rely on anybody emotionally. Even to a friend to my brother especially to a lover, they can betray me any time. It hurts so bad not to be chosen. I will just love my self. Only I can love myself fully.

I went out to do alot of shopping. I feels so good at the same time relaxing just to spend money and buy alot of items. I don't know when and where to use the items i just bought though. Does that even matter. As long as I'm happy, that would be enough for now.