EMN: my own interpretation of the song. Just a short one. Hope you'll like it. Enjoy!
HAROLD's POV:
"What the hell, Amara! What the hell did you do again?! Why! Damn! In just a freaking day you've already maxed out your credit limit and freaking withdraw what was saved on your bank. You freaking spend 3 million pesos!" As I yell to the b*tch in front of the mirror, combing her hair, as if im not fuming mad at her right now. I already said all of the curses I know in her face but that doesn't even affect her. She's like a mute and deaf. I feel like that only entertainment she have is to see me shouting and cursing all the way to the gate of our house.
Kaya bago pa man ako maputulan ng ugat at tumaas ang presyon, kahit naman na healthy ako physically, magkakasakit ako sa asawa ko kaya naman, lumabas nalang ako ng kwarto at nagdrive para maginom sa isang malapit na bar. "one bottle of scotch please" i ordered as i settle in. after the waiter handed me my ever loyal bestfriend, i drink a glass straight. Im Harold Cruz, 32 years old, whose very foolish to fell inlove with a sexy, beautiful, sweet, Shit! Why am i still building up her image? Maybe, ginamitan nya ako ng love potion para maging ganito ako katanga, kagago, kainlove sakanya, maybe its because of her seducing power? May maamo syang mukha and an aura of an angel yet she's an evil witch, i mean literally in her attitude to bed. She's just a golddigger bitch.
We met in a birthday party of a good friend of mine. She's unlike any other girl that i've met. Mahinhin, sweet, tahimik, maganda, innocent all of the adjectives that i can think of. That's why nanligaw ako agad sakanya, despite all of my relatives are against the idea of me and her. They say she's just a social climber, a gold digger that who will love me because of my money. I didn't believed them, which was my biggest mistake. Can they blame me if i married a two-face lying witch? At first, when we were dating, di pa nya pinapakita ang tunay na anyo nya. She won't accept any gifts from me na mamahalin. Nagagalit pa sya kapag binibigyan ko sya ng mga alahas. Well, actually di naman talaga gaanong kamamahalin yung mga binibili ko, 100k worth will be fine. First, mas madaming nagugutom sa kalye ang pwede kong pakainin sa ganoong halaga kaya naman para sa aken mahal na yun. Second, i didn't believe na materialistic sya dahil sa AKALA KO nga iba sya sa mga babaeng nakilala ko. I thought I found the one for me. Pero gaya ng sabi ng nakararami, maraming namamatay sa maling akala. When i marry her, after 15mos of getting to know and exclusively dating. Saka nya pinakita ang tunay nyang ugali, I gave her a credit card na may limit of P500k, dalawa pa ang hiningi nya, dahil good faith ako sakanya na di naman sya magastos, i just gave her what she wanted, after all she is a wife of a business tycoon, so why not? Pag uwi ko galing office, she said na-maxed out nya na daw ang dalawang credit card nya dahil pinalitan nya yung wardrobe nya na naaayon sa buhay ko. And i truly understand that's why i said, no worries babayaran ko nalang kinabukasan. So, the next day she went to my office with a pack of lunch for us, being sweet and all. Then before she left she asked if I already settled her credit account when I said yes she bid goodbye with a hot quickie. On that day when I went home, she said na namaxed out nanaman nya yung credit limit nya cause she bought a pair if jewelries na babagay sa damit na pwede nyong gamitin if may mga events kameng pupuntahan. So I just said ok cause I know women, they really fancy jewelries and besides barya lang naman yun at isa pa asawa ko sya. Besides I know that she's not buying anything for someome dahil matagal na syang ulila and I know for a fact na di sya bumibili ng para sa kalaguyo nya dahil wala naman syang ibang lalaki. I know that dahil may private investigator na nakasunod sakanya every now and then. And then nagpahinga lang sya ng ilang araw ganon nanaman uli ang mangyayari. And I'm so sicked and tired of this bull. Kanina bumili nanaman sya ng isang bag. And for Pete's sake, isang bag for three million pesos? Shit! Wala namang ginto na design yung bag nya pero ang mahal. To think na namamaxed out nya ang credit limit nya maliban pa sa nauubos nya yung 2 million pesos na nasa bank nya? Na once a week nya nga lang gastusin pero damn!? Kahit na sabihing kaya kong bumili doesn't mean she should, dugo't pawis din ang pinuhunan ko sa companies ko tapos sya kung maglustay parang wala lang?
"Another drink sir?" The waiter asked after drinking the last shot of scotch in the bottle. Shit, I already drunk the entire bottle of scotch yet I don't feel drunk or even tipsy. That bitch is really giving me problems that are stronger than any alcoholic drinks. I was about to order a harder drink when my phone vibrated. The witch just texted. 'Fine, I'm leaving. I'm taking everything that I bought, a simple token from you. And besides you can buy all of these in a snap. Adios.' Shit! Shit! Ang kapal talaga ng mukha ng babaeng yun para dalhin lahat ng mga binili nya na gamit ang pera ko? No way!? I stood up and leave some money on the table and hurriedly went to my car. Pinaharurot ko ang kotse kaya naman within 10mins I'm in front of my house. Agad akong pumasok ng bahay at dumiretso sa kwarto, hindi pwedeng umalis ang babaeng yun na dala- I suddenly stopped on my tracks when I saw an angel came out from the bathroom, wearing only a robe.
"Naligo lang muna ako bago umalis. Wag kang magalala, aalis na ako. Eto naman talaga ang gusto mo diba? Ang mawala na ako sa buhay mo. Don't worry, nakasigned nanaman yung annulment papers dyan sayo diba. So di mo na ako kailangan hanapin pa." She said while packing all of her stuff and tears are streaming from her eyes. Shit! Stop pitying Harold! Palabas lang yan ng babaeng yan para pigilan mo sya. She's a witch. A freaking ugly bitch. A social climber. A fucking gold digg-
"Mahal kita Harold, pero kahit kailan di mo yun pinansin. Kahit kailan di mo yun pinahalagahan." As she finished packing. She started to wear her dress. Shit. No. Wag kang papadala Harold. Wag. Shit. Why is my feet walking towards her? Shit! No! Not again. I hate crawling back to her. Damn!
"At mahal din kita. Dapat alam mo din yun." As I hug her so she will stop dressing.
"Bakit hindi ko na maramdaman? Nalason ka na ng mga pinsan mo na ang tingin saken ay isang gold digger, na pera mo lang ang habol ko. Naniniwala ka na sa kanila!" She said while pushing me away.
"Aalis na ako Harold para matahimik ka na at ang mga kamag-anak mo!" Then she carried her bags. I feel so stupid crawling back to her. I feel idiot for doing this.
'Just one more night, swear just another night Harold. And after that, you can kick her out of your life' my other idiotic oafish me suggested, without thinking anymore I grab her arm and kiss her torridly.
"You know that I love you" I said then kissed her again, deeper this time. I pushed her to the wall and kissed her until were both out of breath. I kissed her lips, her face to her jawline. Tracing her face with my lips. Then she grab my hair so I'm face to face with her. Our eyes met with lust and desires. I know I might regret everything tomorrow, but what the hell. I hate her yet I love her.
-NEXT MORNING-
I slowly open my eyes as the sun shines on me. My head hurts, first because of the bottle of scotch I drunk and lastly because my wife and I made love from 10pm till 3am and right now its only 7am, so I lack sleep. I have work at 9am so I have to get up. But when I'm about to, a hand stop me. Right beside me, an angel heavenly sleeping. Shit! What am doing? What the hell did I do? Hindi nanaman ako nagiisip. Damn! I want to smack my face right now or bang my head against the wall para matauhan na ako sa pinag gagawa ko. Then I heard her moan and smile. My angel, my love. I feel I only belong in her arms. I know when she wakes up everything will be upside down again, same rantings, same situation and same problem. This day won't be different with the other days, I'll still be hating her while I'm loving her.
~FIN™~