chapter 6

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It's been three weeks of hectic filming, yet I can't seem to get used to the presence of these top Idols. I mean, Black pink wasn't even in my list of favorites before but now, I find myself going on google or talking with Abby to know more about them. I've never been in any of their dressing rooms though because the colleague I'm assigned to—Hannah—really takes her Job seriously and wants me to do the same.

I'm beginning to miss home too. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE this place. I love that I can see the artists, meet new people, learn new things and make new memories with my friends here. But I still want to see my family, like up close, physically. I want to be able to see them physically, hug them and share my daily activities with them and eat with them. I mean, I miss my mom's food okay!.. I still haven't fully adjusted to their food here. I've eaten many foods like Kebabs, Ramen (the ultimate), Black beans and a lot more foods that I didn't know of before I came here. But it still doesn't help my homesickness. Luckily, I was able to cook earlier today, and I made fried potatoes and egg sauce and they all loved it.

"Wow… this tastes really good, different but still good" Myrah said taking another bite

"Yeah and hot too"Lin said gaming his face " I thought Koreans are the spice masters?" He was blowing out air from his mouth as sweat gathered in his body. It was a really funny sight and he seemed to be the only one affected by it.

It's evening now and everyone is either talking or resting because the artists went to a different location to shoot so the rest of us here are free to do whatever like. It's at times like this I miss home the most. When I'm left alone to think, I can't help but always think about home and the things I miss there. I guess this is what they mean when they say we can't always have what we want. For a while now, all I've ever wanted is to be in Korea and see BTS up close and now that's coming with the price of me not having my sister here with me and being limited to video calls with her and the rest of my family.

And now as I sit in what seems to be a lounge room and listen to my night time playlist, I imagine how happy and excited Stephanie and JJ would've been in this place.

I'm the one I should love in this world

Bitnaneun nareul sojunghan nae yeonghoneul

Ijeya kkaedara so I love me

Jom bujokhaedo neomu areumdaun geol

I'm the one I should love

With my eyes closed as I listen to music, someone taps me on my shoulder and I jump out of the chair with a little shout. I hear the sound of my phone fall like it's a distant sound as I stand frozen in shock.

"Oh my… I'm so sorry I scared you. Are you okay?" Jin asks

Hold on!.. Jin!!!? Like Jin??

I'm really surprised I haven't passed out…

I'm pretty sure I look stupid right now because I'm staring at him, mouth open, not daring to blink—so he doesn't disappear—and totally forgetting my phone until I notice him crouch down and pick it up.

"I believe this is yours. You should check if it's broken" He said holding out the phone. I bowed in appreciation—still unable to speak—and check the phone like he asked me to.

"It's fine sir, just a little scratch at the tip otherwise… thank you for picking it up for me" I'm really embarrassed now because I could've totally done it myself.

"It's fine, I'm sorry for scaring you like that" He says

"Wow…so humble.."

"You didn't!.. you just…I just didn't expect anyone to come in here now" I say

"Ok… was that Epiphany?" He asks smiling

"Yes" I can feel my face heating up at his question.

"What if he thinks I ruined it with my voice!?"

He smiles more and nods. "You did good, I think it sounds better coming from you" he says

"No way! You definitely sound better…I mean, you're the actual singer" I refute

"Really? But as the singer I should know which version sounds better don't you think?" He argues

"Is this a trap or a nightmare?"

"Um…I don't…I don't agree to that sir, Yours is better"

He laughs. "I was joking with you and you're just…hahaha…you're just so serious about it"

I laugh a little in relief and begin to think of whether to leave or continue to talk with him.

"Well thank you" he speaks finally, sitting on the same couch I used before

"You're welcome sir. And uh..thank you too" I say, standing awkwardly beside him. He looks at me confused.

"For telling me I sang well" I say looking at the ground. He nodded and laid his head on the head of the chair and closes his eyes like he's about to sleep.

"Sir..shouldn't you rest your room?" I ask not wanting him to develop any pain from his current posture.

"Are you chasing me away?" He asked smiling and his eyes still closed

"No no no…absolutely not. I just think you might hurt yourself laying like that" I said. He nods a little but doesn't get up.

I tried not to make a lot of noise as I move over to the other chair to sit. But as my butt touches the chair, he sits up.

"I should go… " he says. His eye looked heavy with sleep. "Shouldn't you be going to bed too?"

"Yeah…I will….it's still a bit early"

"Oh...is that the reason you came here?"

I shake my head. "I was feeling a little home sick. I can't seem to sleep these days without dreaming of home"

"That's normal, especially if it's your first time away from home" he says smiling.

"I know what it's like to miss home. I also know that we won't film forever and that you will see them soon. So for now be strong, call them and tell them you miss them—there's no shame in that—and then remain hopeful that the video shoot ends quickly" 

I laugh a little and nod while he yawns. "Thank you sir" was all I could saying return with a smile.

"Thank you too"

"For?...."

"For reminding me to take care of myself" he said

"You're welcome"

"Well, goodnight. Don't stay up too late" he says as he stands from the chair to leave.

"Goodnight sir!" I Called out to him. He laughs and waves but doesn't stop or turn around.

When I was sure he had gone far, I jumped and screamed into my palms not wanting to attract attention and make people think I'm crazy. I run to my room and find the girls asleep. 

"But I need to tell someone about this or I'll explode!"

Then I remember. Stephanie! Stephanie is my younger sister and my only sister. She's the second person I tell everything after my mom and calling my mom at 8p.m.—which will be a busier time for her due to time difference—I try calling my sister.

"Hello?"

"Hello, Steph it's me Ese"

"I know…I was just telling JJ that it's been a while since you called" she says

"And I'm about that. Guess what.."

"What do mean guess? How are my supposed to guess when I don't even know what you're doing?"

"Just try, you might get it"

"Just tell me, I can't guess"

"Ok. I spoke with Jin today! I said Laughing and jumping

"You're lying?" She says in disbelief

"Do I sound like I'm joking? It just happened like few minutes ago"  She stays quiet, trying to process what I just said.

"Wait. Do you mean  World Wide Handsome Jin? Because you've had them mixed up before"

"But it's not him this time, I promise"

"Wow! This is huge! What did you guys talk about?"  I narrate everything to her in detail.

"God of mercy! Ese don't tell me you were openly drooling over the boy??"

"Are you serious? Is that all you want to talk about in all the things I just said?" I ask embarrassed

"I'm just saying though so it won't be that you scared him away"

I face palm. "Stupid"

"I love you too" she says laughing and I joined "unwillingly". Then I tell her about other important things that has happened on set.

"Anyways, congrats on this mile stone and say hello to Him for me"

"yeah of course, I will because this little talk automatically makes us friends"I say sarcastically. We laugh then she says she has to go and hangs up.  I drop contently on my bed wonder if I will be able to sleep tonight.