The beginning of an insight p1

... Meanwhile, in Tacito's little dream world...

It's been few hours since Tacito and Yurei were busted doing the nasty, "Hehe." Tacito chuckled for the thousands time since that happened, he was sitting in the children's playroom balcony where he used to play his violin as a kid.

Ever since Thorn literally Snatched Yurei from his bed and took him to God knows where, Tacito would think about that every few minutes and starts chuckling to himself.

"I know this all might not be real, but how can you not feel embarrassed being caught like that by your parents?" Kimberly who sat besides him, asked curiously.

"I'm embarrassed actually...it's just that's...easier to accept...it.. knowing that this...is all not...real." Tacito replied, "Besides, the way...Yurei getting the...short end of...the stick instead...of me is...a little too...funny." he added chuckling again.

"I suppose you're right! Hehe!" Kimberly chuckled too.

Sighing with a big smile on his face, "Maybe I was... wrong...I'm not gonna...lie but I'm...starting to like...this place Kim." Tacito said.

"It's understandable, it's designed to make you like it...though I'm worried about you, do you really think you can survive 7 days here? We're almost at the end of day one and you've drastically changed your opinion about this place." Kimberly asked.

"That's why you're...here with me!...You'll be my...anchor." Tacito replied.

Smiling, "I'll do my best!" Kimberly replied with enthusiasm.

Suddenly, the room's door opened, the noise was pretty audible so both Kimberly and Tacito stepped back into the room to see who's there.

"Aroon! I mean Fernando in Aroon's body..." Kimberly said upon seeing the visitor.

Since he can't see Kimberly, Fernando approached Tacito and greeted him, "Hello there my prince, I've been looking for you."

Frowning, "I wonder why." Tacito said.

"I heard of what happened to Yurei...I hope you'll be happy to hear that I managed to get him off the hook with his majesty Thorn.

He's not locked in his room anymore." Fernando said.

Surprised, "You yourself would...love for Yurei...to be punished...why did you...help him?" Tacito asked.

"Well...about what you said earlier when you woke-up, about being an adult and all...it's true, you should be free to do whatever you want as long as you want to do it." Fernando said nervously, "I can't keep treating you like a Child anymore, you're to be king after all." He added.

"I'm not sure...i believe you're...being understanding towards...me...Did Muriel put...you up to...this?" Tacito asked skeptically.

Sighing, "Would you please stop pretending Taci." Fernando suddenly said.

"Pretending?!...what are you... talking about Aroon?"

"You know I'm not Aroon, Tacito."

With wide eyes, "Oh my!" Kimberly gasped.

"Earlier today, you called me mother...I just realized that you know who I really am, son." Fernando said.

"If you know...that I know...then why dare...show yourself to...me...you know that...I hate you... so why are... bothering me?!" Tacito asked angrily.

"I know that no matter what I do or say, I can never really wash away The sins I've committed especially towards you, Taci.

I can't bring Aroon back, I can't fix what I've done before, I can only hope that maybe I'll make it to a day where I can be forgiven." Fernando replied.

"It's true you...You can never...really undo all...the shit you've...committed.

And whether it'll...be the real...world...or the dream...world...you're still gonna...be one of...the reasons why...I am what...I am today." Tacito said, standing by his side was Kimberly with a look of sympathy on her face.

"I know I'm twisted and everything I've done is twisted, even my love for you is twisted Taci!

But I promise you I really do love you, I've always wished since I was a kid, that I had someone who can unconditionally Love Me.

When I found out I was pregnant with you, I thought that little dream of mine could come true but Aroon wanted me to get rid of you... but I didn't do so, I ran away...I believe I was a good mother to you until that faithful day when you were just five and Aroon had to come back again, he wanted to take you from me.

Well, I knew I couldn't keep you hidden any longer, after all you're a Royal but just the thought of losing you to Aroon, made me go crazy and I did what I've done, it's horrible I know! but believe me at the moment it felt like I had no other choice!" Fernando replied.

"There's always a...choice!

You just chose...poorly...And I had...to pay the...most price for...it!

You're trying to...tell me that...you had no...other choice but...to fucking cut...my tongue Fernando?!...I was five...I was a...kid goddamn it!" Tacito said making Kimberly gasp, she glanced at Fernando who's face formed a sour expression before he looked away from Tacito.

"I'm really sorry, for all of that..." Fernando said.

"I'm sure you...are!...For 2 years...I couldn't talk...not that I...could have talked...with all the...trauma I've gathered...I probably couldn't...talk even if...i wanted to!

And I don't...care if you...did it because...it was some...sort of a...ritual to protect...me or whatever.

Harming me and...then telling me...that you love...me...are two separate...things...they can never...mean the same...shit!" Tacito replied.

"Poor Tacito..." Kimberly mumbled.

Sighing, "Just...a minute ago...I asked you...why did you..come to bother...me.

but I think...i understand why...now.

You've built a...life for yourself...here...or at least...this is...what this world...is trying to...make me believe.

And...since I have...the power to...knock down everything...you've built so...far,

If word got...out about who...you really are...you could easily...lose everything from...your position to...your marriage with... Lucius.

Which I'm surprised...you haven't been... exposed so far...since Garrick also...knows who you...really are Fernando...at least he...knows part of...the truth since...he should be... believing that you're...Aroon..the murderer who...killed the real...Fernando." Tacito said.

"I've explained the situation to him, I've told Garrick everything that actually happened long ago!

He knows who I am and he knows everything I've done was to protect you, although he didn't agree with my logic, he was so angry at me but he promised to keep it a secret as long as I promised him I'd never hurt anyone again.

However just minutes before I came here, I actually went to see him and I told him that I suspect that you might know about my true identity, so Garrick asked me to Come clean to you and ask for your forgiveness." Fernando explained, he was visibly shaking at this point.

"You're so terrified...I might expose... your lies...to everyone...aren't you?" Tacito asked.

Bursting into tears, "I know I'm a shithole of a person! I can never really earn your forgiveness! but please, please! I'm willing to do anything.

You can humiliate me, say whatever you want to me, God if you want to hit me do it but please! it took me years to finally live as a normal person, Don't take it away from me!

I know I don't deserve any bit of your kindness since I took away the chance to live a normal life from you, but please if it's not for my sake at least for Lucius, the poor man is in love with me I can't hurt him, I can't!" Fernando begged, he knelt to the ground at Tacito's feet.

Tacito's eyes started watering at Fernando's pitiful sight, he began looking upwards in hopes his tears wouldn't fall down, as he had to now face a part of this dream world that was too real to be a dream.

In reality, Fernando have hinted few times that he wished his son would forgive him, but he never outright begged for Tacito's forgiveness like this.

The real Fernando acknowledged that his actions were atrocious and disgusting and tried to cover them up by saying how much he loved Tacito, but it never felt sincere because up until now he never really apologized like a decent person should to Tacito.

But Tacito himself wasn't sure what's sincere anymore.

Is an apology made by someone who has so much to lose unless they apologize and beg for forgiveness, even considered sincere?

Isn't this dream world Fernando just apologizing, so he could keep his life and marriage intact?

This might be a fake world but what if someday the real Fernando actually apologizes to Tacito? Just like this fake one is doing, begging and crying while kneeling in front of him.

Tacito knows he's too kind and he will probably forgive Fernando if he were to throw himself on the ground at his feet while begging, even though he doesn't really want to forgive Fernando unless it's a sincere apology.

But how can Tacito know it's sincere? the other Fernando the real one doesn't seem to have anything to lose, so maybe if he apologizes it's going to be sincere right?

If the real Fernando apologizes, it's because he wants to fix his relationship with Tacito, right?

"I have no...interest in exposing...you...so you don't...have to worry...I won't say... anything...but I won't... forgive you either.

Although I don't...believe you've changed...your ways but...considering how everybody...seem to be...living peacefully these...past years I...guess I can...turn a blind...eye for a...while.

Now please remove...yourself from my...sight...because I can't...really continue this...charade with you." Tacito said.

With tears still streaming down his face, Fernando bowed with his head as he repeatedly thanked Tacito before he got-up and quickly left.

"That must've took a lot of courage from you, Tacito." Kimberly spoke-up, she was quickly taken back when Tacito fell to his knees as he let out a deep shaky sob.

"Oh goodness!" Kimberly found herself kneeling besides the crumbled Tacito, patting his back while he cried, "You were so strong, I'm proud of you." She said gently while comforting him.

...Some time later...

Sitting by one of the tables in the library, It's been a while now since He had his breakdown, Tacito with Kimberly's help, has managed to calm down and the two of them were now enjoying a game of cards, with Kimberly just watching as Tacito played with Matilda who returned after being away most of the day.

"Oh man you're really good at this! just how many times do I have to lose before you start pitying me and Let me win!" Matilda whined making Tacito chuckled.

"What's the point...of winning that... way?...at least try...having fun Mati!" He said.

"I personally suck at playing cards." Kimberly said sniggering, "Honestly, you're just so good at everything Taci.

No wonder Yurei is jealous of everyone, even a little kid like Jasper." Matilda said.

"It's weird to...think an 18...years old is... jealous of an...11 years old."

"What's weird is that Yurei's jealous of someone when Yurei himself is literally your destined mate!"

Chuckling again, "Poor boy thinks...the world is...out to get... him." Tacito said.

Suddenly, "Hey! Baby! Your dad and I are done making dinner!" An enthusiastic Yurei said as he approached them.

With her stomach now growling, "Oh man you came out the right time!, I was about to start eating myself inside out!" Matilda said in relief.

"Then hurry-up, Muriel is telling everybody to gather at the table!" Yurei replied happily.

"I wonder if I can eat some food here, I didn't try that yet." Kimberly said.