NIGHTMARES

As usual, Miss joy , giving me more homework that i can't handle , Elwyn making my life miserable every chance he gets ....."

Yea , that Elwyn, he is most miserable person ever , he made my school days miserable too until i cut him out my life , kim said in her head as she chuckled as memorias replayed in her head . Turn her face away so Amanda won't see her blushing.

But she didn't reply to Amanda.

Kim , do you hate him ? , " Amanda questioned as she knew every time she said anything about Elwyn was because kim would turn silent and she would lool away .

Oh , dear, it is the opposite , " kim inner voice said, but only kim could hear .

No, I don't , "kim answered honestly.

Then why are you two not friends? Ever since I started school, i noticed = Elwyn is friends with everyone except you, and from what i can see , he doesn't have any problems with you. He used to play for things you wanted , when you were in school, he used to even try talking to you but you ignored him ... so i thought you probably hate him , but i don't know why.

I don't hate him , i just liked him too much , " kim said, but of course, she is not going to admit that to anyone.

I don't hate him , in fact, i like him he is a great friend .

Then are you not friends with him ? , " Amanda questioned again .

Kim looked at her , wondering if she should tell her or not

what will Elwyn think of me if I told her , i like him, and she told him . There is definitely no way i could tell her , infect. I told one person, and right now, I don't even want to see her.

Kim , you are going again , " Amanda said as she saw kim lost in her thoughts.

We were friends, but let us say we grow apart , like our friendship get boring and i didn't want it anymore , he was too miserable, " kim said with a chuckled as a part of it was true .as she they grew up, not adults but not completely kids . He was miserable, but until today, she misses their friends. She still wants it, but how will only friendship work . It was already difficult to stay away, but it was also difficult to stay and see her cousin Kendall, who is two years older than him , try to kiss him .

That day She was willing to put aside her feelings and be just friends. After all , they are best friends and she really miss him . But then she saw Kendall, her favorite cousin , who is they only one who knew about her feelings. She was now so close to him that their lips touch

Hmmm, yea, he is too miserable , but he is also protected like a bullied that wants to be the only one that can bullied me , " Amanda said with a chuckled as she remembered him.

Humm, " kim hummed with a smile that is like the Elwyn she remembered.

He never changes, I wonder if he ever will , " kim said in her head .

After a while of silence, Amanda said something shocking .

Kim , do you still think about lovie .

Yea , I do . How could I ever stop ?

I wonder how Aaron , Delissa, and Devina make out , knowing that they will never see their mother again . , " Amanda said, and kim said nothing as she missed her sister, who wasn't always around, but what about lovie kids they ones that was always with her. They have more memories of that cold yet warm, savage but funny woman. That always made you laugh when you wanted to cry , the one that will make your nightmares into a fairly tale . When your hero shows up and takes away all your pain , give you joy and make you feel safe .

I sometimes wonder if mom dies ...."

Don't even think about it , " kim said in a loud voice . As her eyes turned red , settle with tears . As she looked at Amanda .

One thing kim is afraid of and that losing her family members , her love ones , before she never thought one of her family would ever leave but one day someone really really important to her lefts her and the world , without a word , without saying she was leaving and never coming back , she promise to come back but she broke that promise and that broke kim into pieces , the last goodbye the had , they both didn't know that would be they last good bye .

Kim..."

Don't Amanda....." Don't even think about mom , leaving us that way , she can't, she never will , so just stop what you're thinking , " kim said in a shaking voice.

She is not leaving us , I won't allow her to , she can't now or ever .

Kim , I was just...."

Shut up , Amanda, just leave, " Kim said, not in a mood. To listen to Amanda explanations.

She stood up and jumped into the water as tears mixed with the water .and she stares at nothing but her eyes wipe open in the water .

She knew the minute she did was because the words Amanda said would sink in more.

Amelia leaving was something she never wanna think about, one time she had that nightmare as she dream she saw her mother in a coffin and that dream was destroying her piece by piece until lovie came back and made it alright , it was then lovie promises nothing would change as long as she live , now lovie is dead, she doesn't want to wonder if it would ever happen.

Minutes pass by .

Kim , kimanda, kim , kim, " Amanda called out for her but kim was still in the water.

Am sorry for what I said , I just ..." I don't even know what I was thinking, just come out of the water, and I promise not to never ever think about it again, I swear.

After a while, Kim still didn't come out, and Amanda got worride ,

Kim , if you don't come out, I will call mom , " Amanda said .

The words work as kim didn't want her mom to worride as Amelia is already sick.

Kim got out of the water and walk away as if she was in a hurry.

Amanda just look at her and sigh .

In her room .

Kim sat on the bed with her eyes closed , listening to music as music was like her therapy.

It distract her , from the world and everything that is going around her.

The words are comforting, and she understood the lyrics as she listens to every words .

It was a great distraction and it made her happy sometimes, but other times it made her overthink more .however it depends on what music she s listening too.