IT WASN'T HER

" I think I like him "

But it felt differently to the ones i am use to probably because he is stranger .

But am confused, i am not sure of his feelings or mine

I guess I need time but when i look at him. I don't know why but i felt like i was expecting more , i want him to talk to me.

For they first time In a long time i felt like there Is more to live . And i am expecting more .

It's been months since we met i felt like i have know him long but yet i don't know him at all. I want to know him more then I ever wanted to know anyone.

Happy birthday sis , " levon said as he came and sit next to me pulling me out of my thoughts.

I hope I am not late , " levon added as i look at him and smile , i didn't care if he was late but main thing he was here .

No elder brother you are right on time, just to eat the delicious meal made by mom , " I said as mom bought the food she made at the dinning table. It smell tasty. Looks tasty. I knew it would taste tasty too as mom is the best cook i had ever known.

Mom , your food looks tasty , " I said to mom and she smile while saying , " I hope you enjoy it .

Yea I would .

I then look at Levon who was smiling as he look at me .

What ? , " I asked as i don't like it when anyone is staring at me as specially when i know they are doing it .

Your smile I haven't seen you smile like that for a long timw . that i even forgot you could smile so brightly , " levon said as i look at him and smile yes I knew it but I couldn't help it..."

Humm..I noticed it too and am sure everyone does , " mom said and everyone nodded their head as they took their steats . I lowered my head Then hear levon.

Remember when she was alittle more younger we use to call her smiley because she was always smiling, " he said and i turn to him , yea I remember too , the only time I was sad was when that one person leaves , when i was much younger , I use to go to sleep , without a care in the world as i didn't know they world yet , i didn't know pain, regret , sorrows, fights , all i knew was love that i have.

i know I don't know it yet either and i don't think I am ready as i was always afraid of growing up too , but i know i will make it through whatever happens my family will always be there and that makes me less scared. Though i never said it to them .

I look at everyone who was smiling looking at me and I offered them a shy smile .

Before i forgot, i got you a present, " levon said as he pull out a a small box. He give me and as just why looking at it I know what is inside .

I know you love music, so i decide to buy one , it would be much easier to carry around then your headphone , " levon said and I smile .

Thanks elder brother , " i said with a bright smile . As i really love music and it surprises me that he stills remember as he is always away like Kimberly. In some other city .

Just then Dwayne walk in looking like he just woke up , his clothes was unkept , his hair was mussy , his eyes were swell and oh God . What is that ....

Elder brother was is on your neck , " i asked worried as he had a deep red mark on his neck and a matter of fact there is alot on his neck .

DWAYNE POV.

I woke up late then i ever did , with my head hurting badly and i knew pretty much why , yesterday i drink until i was dead drunk that I don't even know when i reach home. I don't even know how i reach home , the last thing i remember was seeing, kerry , howere it didn't feel like her. I don't know but when i kiss her it felt different . I don't feel her , maybe it's because it has been months since i had last kiss her or because i was drunk.

At first we talk and drink as I try to distract my mind from the needs I felt when i saw her , she looked absolutely hot in that blue mini dress , her shoulders highlights hair, gray eyes , pink lips , that i want to kiss madly howere i don't want to cross her limits, I betrayed her with her cousin and she is getting married soon even though her wedding was postponed.

But i am just happy i had seen her and she didn't look upset or sad either . I felt i could let her go though it hurt . However the moment she looked at me with those eyes of her and then her sight made there way down to my lips. And i lost control when she lean in as our breaths mingle together. And then our lips met ...

I wonder what else happen i hope I didn't go to far , i never took her for a one night stand nor would i ever do , I wanted us to wait until marriage but i then i accidently slept with Sherry and i lost it , I meant my v card . However i try to hide it and i started spending time with other women but never went farther then kissing , however other belived , what i wanted them to believe as even if it had came out that i am no longer " v , i would atless got a answer to tell kerry ,

Yes I planned on lying to kerry , I meant how can i told her that i slept with her cousin it was impossible for me to tell her , I knew she would try to understand but i just can't explain it to her face , i mean like i lose all my words whenever i try too , however it doesn't matter now as everyone know it.

I want to call her but then i think it is best if she calls instead as i am not sure , what if it was just imagination

While thinking about it over and over again i got a call on my phone . It was Jordan.

What up dude, " i question

Nothing , i just wanted to see if your awake and your okay , " Jordan said .

Just woke with hangover, " i replied.

How was your night, " Jordan questioned as he sounds abite displeased.

I don't remember, " i answered honestly.

Where kerry there , " I question to make sure . i remember seeing her , maybe it was just my imagination or something.

No but Ashley was , " Jordan said as he chuckle .

Really she wasn't, " i question completely disappointed.

" I should have known not to put my hopes up . , "

Jordan chuckle , " you seems disappointed little waynee. You didn't seems like it last night when that girl was kissing you , you look like you were the happiest man ali..." I hang up the call before he could complete his line .

It wasn't her , " i mumbled completely disappointed,

God dammit this hangover is killing me , " i said in a loud voice that hurt my head more howere my heart was more hurted.