He could laugh too.

14,8,2023 ]

it has almost been a week since I haven't met him but I draw him everyday just to look at it an smile thinking about him , I wonder if he knows someone spent all there time thinking about him and drawing him , " i said to out loud but of course no one heard as i was alone in my room .

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At dinner .

We have been invited to the Charles and Singh wedding, and before you say anything, I just want to let you know there are no objections. We are all going , I know some of you don't care about funerals, much less weddings. Dad said while everyone nodded their heads, and I looked at Dwayne he was silent. I knew how it felt just by having a feeling that you're losing someone, even though I had no idea of what they did in that room or what their relationship was. It still hurt and felt helpless, and I Dwayne is probably in more pain as that was his girlfriend, the one he loves,

Yang, and I are still strangers, and I only liked him , so I could only pity Dwayne, as no matter how I felt, I couldn't compare to his feelings.

Dad continued on that topic for a while, and I could see Dwayne's, forcing himself to eat.

After dinner, we call it a night

[ 15 , 8 , 2023 ]

She is getting married and I am invited to her wedding... can you imagine it , " Dwayne said again for the hundred and thousands of times.

While Jordan chuckled.

No but I can imagine you as the Dj playing back all of her voice records , especially the ones when she said, -I LOVE YOU DWAYNE AND ONLY YOU, " Jordan said Laughing and Dwayne chuckled despite his saturation.

Can you please stop joking Jordan, we need to be serious. , " Dwayne said with a serious expression.

Sorry, bro, but it is just funny, I can't stop thinking about it, " Jordan said again, chuckling.

You should be thinking about a way for me to escape this wedding.

I got an idea, " Jordan said again after a few moments of silence

What is it ? , I hope it's not a way for me to be the Dj .

NO , man, all thou i love the idea about that , " Jordan said, chuckling

How about we crash this wedding, ' Jordan Added.

I have thought about it but ..."

Think about it after you explain what happened back then. She will forgive you, and who knows, probably, instead of being Mr and Mrs singh, it will be Mr and Mrs Alexander.

Ugh, I have thought about it before, but I knew. I had to get dirt on Rohan, but he was too clean. He is a perfect match for her.

What? , your a fucking jerk , ' Jordan said.

I know I am a fucking jerk and I am a very big one .

Good thing you know it , " Jordan said as he grinne.

(fri,August,18,2023)

Kim pov.

I was planning to visit my favorite places later. After I had ice cream there, the were two things I liked most when I was out here , ICE CREAM & YANG. But for now we are shopping at platinum, it's a small store in bartica, however the owner of the place are really friendly, Dad and the owner are close friends, so sometime we take what we want when we are out of money but we try not to do it many times though the owner try to give us free.

While mom was at the cashier paying for what we bought , Amy and Amanda was fighting for a teddy uncle barrí give them , who was the owner of the store .

I smile, looking at Amanda and Amy fighting who was fighting .

I turn only to see the wanted reality. That i try to put aside . The one I didn't want to belive , the one i turn blind eyes .

" I saw him with the same girl" .

First when I saw him and her I say maybe they are not a couple but then when I look he smile at her this isn't they first time I saw him smile but his smile can melt your heart.

From a distance they walk pass me , i couldn't tell if they saw me but I wanted him to see me , I want to see his reaction, I want to know if he felt guilty, I wanted to know if he likes me , like I always told myself, was it just me or was it both of us and it wasn't just my hallucinations

Unable to control my jealous that i felt deep in my heart , I walk behind them from the other side of the road so i could see them , they seems like a couple it was just that they didn't hold hands

I kept looking at him from a distance I keep walking behind them , until they stop at a shop over the other side of the ice cream shop

So I decided to get something to cool down my temper , while they were shopping.

" maybe the are just here shopping for the store or something" I said to myself out loud.

What ? , " mom said until now I realize mom, Amanda and Amy are also here . Did the see my reaction , do the notice anything , however i don't have the time for questions.

I kept watching them from a distance, yang was talking to a old indian woman as she smile at him as he talk to her however I couldn't see his face .

" seems like he managed to make everyone around him smile, " I said to myself but I made sure to say it only to myself this time .

soon they left , and I wanted so bad to follow them ,

Mom , can I go by Davie to buy some snacks , " I asked, and mom nodded her head without waiting for her to say a word I walk away.

While walking behind them , I noticed the stop at another store that I am not familiar with though I had seen it alot from outside I never been in there . I decided to walk up ahead and stop by Davie .

Davie is cafe , the owner name is Davie too .

Uncle Davie please for two sandwiches and two cheeseburger, 4 strawberry milkshakes, " I ordered and Davie nodded his head .

I took a seat and watch them , I felt like a sharp needles has stab my heart into pieces, and apart of me knows, how the story ends ,apart of me knows this is what i need , i needed reasons to stay away .. I need reasons to keep him atless 5 feet apart .not too close .

I decided to take some photos to remind myself of it , you can call it crazy but it might help . this isn't the first time the person i liked , likes someone else and that is why I wasn't planning on being in a relationship but i just wanted Yang , however a part of me don't that is why I run everytime, it wasn't because of my nervousness but there was something else .

" I am scared"

Soon the left and i followed, when I reach mom at the ice cream shop , i told her i wanted credit for my phone and she left me go again .

I guess instead of it hurting me and make me stay away , it makes me more curious.

I walk and gone by Long yung .

Just as i walk up I notice them , she was leaning on the table and over the other side Yang was seating there , as it was two cashier, both at each side of the entrance

Yang was talking to another Chinese woman , in their language laughing, however the other girl was laughing too, I assumed she understood their language thought she seems like Guyaness.

"However i don't understand a F ing they are saying"

I was burning with jealous but also helpless so i just pick up something just so he sell me himself .

I pick up two thing , i didn't even bother looking at as i kept staring at Yang,

angrier, jealous or helpless or whatever I am feeling right now ,I couldn't deny the other feelings i was having , which confused me .

" so handsome" I hear my inner voice and of course i couldn't deny it .

I stood infornt of him , he was too busy talking that he didn't notice my presence infornt of him ,

Next chapter **

"Unbelievable, i could sense his presence even if I am in a crowded place, but right now there was only 4 people , me Yang, his friend and the one he was flirting with.

The lady notice my presence and turn to look at me and smile ,

She turn back to him and said-- well ,

" God knows what , i don't understand.. however he turn and look at me , he didn't seems surprised or nothing, he then look down at what i just put on the table .

He didn't even focus on me I was standing between him an her , he kept talking to his friend , who was laughing and he was smiling, sometimes he chuckled and his flirting was looking at him and smiling if she only know how mush I wanted to fight with her I keep standing there cuz he only had time for his friend

I kept staring at him and i bet anyone that paid attention to me would have known , i was boiling with jealousy.

" he could laugh too "

"God dammit what is wrong with me , his smiling face , his laughters , his soft chuckled and his voice they were getting at me , I just want to stand here and forgot about whoever he was talking to , he was too handsome , for me to care about what he does, as long as I would watch him like this , his smiling face , his laughter , it felt enough but just for a few seconds.

My sadness returned , he made me confused, the feelings i was having left me , confused.

I was so sad he could have seen it on my face but he didn't know because he didn't look my way , I walk away feeling something heavy in my chest as it was fill with sadness.

Author pov .

After that kim met her mom and they went go get her dress for the wedding as Amelia didn't get Kim and Amanda right size .

For the next 2 days kim wrote songs about it & about him an the other girl , she wasn't sure if she was heart broken but she was really sad, helpless, hopeless , confused, frustrated.