Chapter 1 (part 1)

   What's there to be trusted? Can you trust just anyone? Can you even trust yourself? All of those questions are a cliche but what if you came to face a situation where you saw and watched the world , the whole world for what it really is- in childhood most of us had that picture that we are the good guys we are the champions we are the hero's - look at what kind of hero you turned out to be,No social life, No experience in any job..

there is no way to call someone who works 24/7 in an office job or any job for too long and call it a job -no time to think for yourself ? I might be hating but don't misunderstood - just like how everyone thinks they're living when in reality they're repeating the same path, same circle as those who came before. We thought we were the good guys- when our family does bad and close ones even worse- we thought we were the Hero's when in reality everyone wants you to accept that everything will never turn out the way you want it -which is to give up- isn't that sad? everyone decides their limits at some point don't you think? After trying over and over-

Everyone keeps trying to encourage you to try but when does it end?

But the thing that everyone mistake about giving up -

It's that it's not -easy-

I'm not sure if I what I said makes any sense- but at least somewhere -

Whoever you are- Maybe me or someone else reading my mind or watching this on TV or even reading this somewhere- while listening to some music and relaxing after a long day

Thank you for listening ! Stranger danger!

My name is-Yamato Takao-

This is my story

I was born in 2002, January 30

And it was -summer - 2008 , in the middle of that hot heat season

I think..I was 8 years old back then..

I was still young and energetic, I played around everywhere and tried always to do the impossible to impress my friends at the time stuff such as playing my favorite fictional characters to a tie or role play in real life some of the games we were interested in-it was mostly just me playing with my cousin son tho

It was a warm summer afternoon and I was playing around outside with my friends. When the sun started to set I knew that it was already getting late so I came back home.

" Where you been?" Mom asked

I closed the door and smiling I replied -

"mom, please make me dinner! I'm hungry!"

" always when you see me- it's dinner, it's breakfast, it's lunch-"

" I am wondering what will happen if you don't see me at home one day-"

" sure, I can try!"

" That sounds good" mom said with a warm smile

" Mom! Mom! "

"what it is? My dear"

" I think , I dreamed of you yesterday"

" Oh , I see..."

" I dreamed that I came back from playing outside and you were waiting for me just like right now"

" I see I see"

" I even dreamed of a moment where I asked you to make me dinner  " I giggled

Which is yeah ! Was true!

" oh dear.."

I quickly finished my dinner and went to the bathroom

Dad works part time jobs,mom is at home- but all what she ever do is busy lazy..as usual-

Mom hears the door open, she turns her head to the sound; knowing exactly who would be back home at the hour

Mom looks at him as well and says loud and clear to him "where have you been?"

" Working my ass off"

" Back so early"

" why the kitchen looks dirty?"

" I will take care of it- no worries"

" What's your son doing?"

"studying and let me remind you again, I want buy new clothes "

" I swear that I already give you money like yesterday"

" Yeah? Cry about it- I need some new clothes better than the old ones that I have "

" but why?"

" instead of asking why can't you just give me what I need?"

" I literally give you what you need yesterday , women"

" The rest of that money I used to buy more clothes for your son"

" what? It can't be that expensive "

" it only took 70% of how much you give me yesterday "

" alright, fine - it's not the end of the month tho so I only have those" dad handled her some money

" tck, that is fine for now.."

" Great, now give me some food! I'm hungry"

" just wait and I will be ready with it"

" His sister is still paralyzed " dad said muttering to himself

Mom :" She's okay.."

" ....she's not-"

" she will be"

"..."

....

Sister...

" Well, ever since she had to leave her grandma house now she just doesn't speak it's as if I'm not here-"

" You're her mother shouldn't you do something? To help out?"

" Me? She literally tried to -murder- her own grandma she got what deserved plus I tried everything that I can"

" and don't say something like ' you're her mother ' it's not like your helping much either meat-head" mom added

" H-Hey!"

" You know, I was thinking about it "

" Maybe, it was right to let her be raised with them back all of those years ago..when her grandma asked to take her in remember?" Mom added

" I already know how hard it is to deal with her but until we meet up with her doctor we have to take care of her and give her a good treatment "

" You will need to cough me extra money then"

" dealing with one is already tiring as it is" mom added

" Sure -" dad replied in response

" Just don't shout at me anymore now, I had a long day"

" if what you said before is True -"

" Then, she's now just a child in an adult body right?"

" The doctor said she had a big shock "

"Nonesense"

" I suppose he will be answering that next time "

" so her body is paralyzed and her mind went back to baby steps"

" she's just back to her child personality - but that's not a big deal just do what you always do"

" Which is? What?" Mom asked in confusion

" all what you gotta do is just treat her well-and she won't hurt you.. hopefully"

" What if she doesn't get better? What can you do then?"

" we don't know , yet"

" then- shouldn't we-"

" but -"

" Obviously we would need to raise her here then"

" not much, we can do about that"

" Alright then" mom sighed

" Okay- it's ready -" mom said giving him the dinner he wanted on the table

" Damn...don't tell me this is?.."

" Eat well" mom smirked

" Do you want to kill me!? Why is it yesterday's food again?!"

" Because yesterday food was still around- I had to dump it somewhere" mom replied

" Huh?!"

I left the bathroom afterwards and entered my room- quietly as not to disturb them

The walls in our house weren't exactly the kind that doesn't let you hear through them

As I closed my room door, I thought back about my parents conversation

In childhood, I thought the world was full of happiness - a magical place where everything was possible.  

After realizing my illusion, I found out that the happiness I believed in wasn't real.

In reality, it was full of unfairness, cruelty, and disappointment.  

My big sister was my hero -

the one who's always there for me with a bright, cheerful attitude.  

But I never imagined that one day she would become a completely different person.  

Something came up, and she changed for the worse - she became cold and emotionless.  

I was devastated by this sudden transformation.

I felt lost and confused as I tried to understand what happened to my sister.  

I questioned what could have caused such a drastic shift in personality.  

I wondered if it was my fault, or maybe it was something I did.  

In my desperation to find answers, I searched for clues, but came up empty-handed.

I'm pathetic...