I AM BACK!!!
(Not a chapter, you can skip if you don't care.👍)
Where was I? Hmm… having a mental breakdown.
Why? Because I was getting white/gray hair and went to the doctor, he told me that I had a tumor in my brain when he looked at the X-Ray. I stressed for a whole day and didn't sleep, told my brother that I could very possibly die, and prepared everything in case of that.
Still I was a little paranoid so I went to another doctor and he said that I don't have anything and it's only Marie Antoinette Syndrome. Nothing too big… went to a couple more doctors after that and they said that I was okay and had no brain tumor. I cried like a little bitch at that, I was so fucking happy.
When my mother died I honestly thought that I wouldn't mind dying after I piled up enough money for my brother and had him grow right into an adult and happy.
But… nah, this incident taught me that even though I thought that I was okay with dying… Death is scary, especially at such a young age, I have done nothing with my life. I am nowhere where I wanted to be. I had big ambitions, I gave them up, but honestly, since I will die anyway then I better make a name for myself.
Anyway, at the end of it, I have left the well paying job at my company. I don't wanna stay looking at my back constantly, I will chill out for a bit to relax from this stressing time.
P.S: I sued the first doctor and won the case. The doctor didn't seem like a bad guy, but he fucked me so bad, I have never felt so weak. Having to tell my little brother that I might die was horrifying, even worse than death.
So anyway, what a stressful month, damn, these months haven't been treating me good.😂 Sheesh, at least now I think that my life is way more precious than I gave myself credit for.