my day is ruined.

that feel your father wake you in 4am to just yell at you at your one mistake. its not even 100 percent my mistake because i need to take care of our animals. in my experience you need to feed first the animals before anything else. and if i ever take that mistake. i cant feed the animal any.ore and he will yell at me again. i dont know what is wrong i think all of the desission im making are wrong. because what ever i do in our house im always became wrong. im stress i always looking out if my father have problem. if there some one giving him problem. because if ever he has slightest problem he will drink and after that he goes berserk. i have trauma of that personality of my father. That's why im always doing what he say i dont to be yell at. i dont know why but everytime that i been yelled at im always thinking of ending my life. i dont if my tolerance is small or im just feed up of this life of mine.