Let me help you

As the early morning light filtered through the windows, casting a soft glow over the room, I held Jin close, silently vowing to be there for him, no matter what challenges lay ahead. And in that moment, despite the uncertainty of the future, I found a glimmer of hope—a hope that maybe, just maybe, Jin could find peace and redemption in the arms of someone who cared.

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An hour later as I finished preparing hangover soup for him he came out of the room looking so beat up, "How are you feeling?" I asked, "huh?" He looked up at me with surprise and confusion, "What are you doing in my house?" He questioned, "Look around does this look like your place?" I told him. He looked all around my apartment and then looked back at me, "How did I get here?" He questioned, "Well you appeared at my door drunk as ever, told me you hated me and then you cried yourself to sleep." I told him.

"Since you had your little laugh at me I'll be leaving now." He said but as he was about to walk away I grabbed his arm, I had to put a stop to this madness. We've had encounters like this way too many times and I can't bear another one, "Look you're not leaving this place whether you like it or not, I'm sick and tired of dealing with this saga of yours." "It's always the same thing over and over again, This time you're happy, another time you're mad and angry at me, then after that, you get drunk show up to where I'm at, and start showing who you are inside."

"What the heck are you talking about!" He exclaimed as he released himself, "I'm saying I'm willing to help you in order to help myself too, I don't know what you've been through or have gone through but I can tell you've been in a lot of pain." "So if you're willing to let me help you I'll do so but, if you're not interested in my help I'll appreciate it if you can't keep your problems to yourself whenever you are around me because I also have problems of my own and I don't have time with you never end shenanigans."

"Who do you think you are? To think that you can save." "I'm not asking for your saving nor am I asking for your help, so please leave me alone!" He stated, "I would leave you alone but you should also leave me alone and get out of my life."

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Jin's pov:

Guess he really does hate me, but why do I even care if he hates me or not? I hate this fucking feeling I'm feeling right now, I just want to stab my heart out of my chest because it hurts so much. I this, I hate everything that's going on right now I fucking hate my life.

"Fine then, I'll leave and never show my face to you ever again." "YOUR NOT WORTH SHIT ANYWAYS!" I exclaimed as I stormed out of the apartment.

As I stormed out of the apartment, a whirlwind of anger and frustration engulfed me. Tae's words echoed in my mind, each one a painful reminder of my own inadequacies and shortcomings. Why did I always let my emotions get the best of me? Why couldn't I control the chaos that raged within me?

As I walked aimlessly through the streets, the weight of my own self-loathing bore down on me like a heavy burden. I wanted to scream, to lash out at the world for the mess that my life had become. But deep down, I knew that the blame lay solely with me.

I had pushed away the one person who had ever shown me kindness, the one person who had ever believed in me when no one else did. And now, as I stood alone in the cold light of day, I couldn't help but feel the crushing weight of my own regret.

But even amidst the darkness that threatened to consume me, a small voice whispered in the depths of my soul—a voice that spoke of redemption and forgiveness, of second chances and new beginnings. And though I may not have believed in it at the time, I knew that deep down, I longed for nothing more than to find solace in the arms of someone who cared.

But as I wandered through the streets, the reality of my situation began to sink in. I was alone, broken, and lost in a world that seemed intent on crushing me beneath its heel. And though I may have wanted nothing more than to turn back, to swallow my pride and beg for forgiveness, I knew that it was too late.

So with a heavy heart and tears streaming down my face, I disappeared into the depths of the city, leaving behind the one person who had ever dared to care for me, despite all my flaws and shortcomings. As I disappeared into the urban landscape, I couldn't help but wonder if I would ever find my way back to the one person who had ever shown me what it meant to truly be loved. As I stormed out of the apartment, a whirlwind of anger and frustration engulfed me. Tae's words echoed in my mind, each one a painful reminder of my own inadequacies and shortcomings. Why did I always let my emotions get the best of me? Why couldn't I control the chaos that raged within me?

As I walked aimlessly through the streets, the weight of my own self-loathing bore down on me like a heavy burden. I wanted to scream, to lash out at the world for the mess that my life had become. But deep down, I knew that the blame lay solely with me.

I had pushed away the one person who had ever shown me kindness, the one person who had ever believed in me when no one else did. And now, as I stood alone in the cold light of day, I couldn't help but feel the crushing weight of my own regret.

But even amidst the darkness that threatened to consume me, a small voice whispered in the depths of my soul—a voice that spoke of redemption and forgiveness, of second chances and new beginnings. And though I may not have believed in it at the time, I knew that deep down, I longed for nothing more than to find solace in the arms of someone who cared.

But as I wandered through the streets, the reality of my situation began to sink in. I was alone, broken, and lost in a world that seemed intent on crushing me beneath its heel. And though I may have wanted nothing more than to turn back, to swallow my pride and beg for forgiveness, I knew that it was too late.

So with a heavy heart and tears streaming down my face, I disappeared into the depths of the city, leaving behind the one person who had ever dared to care for me, despite all my flaws and shortcomings. And as I disappeared into the urban landscape, I couldn't help but wonder if I would ever find my way back to the one person who had ever shown me what it meant to truly be loved.

To be continued