introduction

I used to think that once I got into college my life would take a huge turn, I thought I would finally make friends and go to parties like how other people my age did but…who was I kidding? My social awkwardness always ruined things for me, no matter how hard I try I'm always the weird nerd kid. It was like I was meant to be loner because I've never really had a real friendship. The only times people would talk to me was when they needed answers to the homework or help with anything, of course, me being a naive fool I said yes to everything and I became a target.

Even now that I'm in my third year of College I have still not experienced anything joyful, getting good grades and being awarded trophies and metals was nothing new to me. I wanted to at least have a friend or someone to celebrate with.

But after being a loner my whole life I've seen downsides of friendships, sometimes the people you think you're friends with will go behind your back and stab you. So I've realized that maybe I was fine off alone, my own little quiet life.

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"Another one to the collection." I hung my honor medal up with the others but there was no excitement in me, this was nothing new it was like a routine.

I sighed as I grabbed my hoodie off my bed and threw it on, I looked at myself in the mirror and all I could see was a dead lalemntful guy. I placed my glasses on as I threw on the hood on my head grabbed my bag and walked out into the world.

The sun was beaming bright as usual and everyone around me was cheering, smiling, laughing as they headed to their destination. I felt like an outcast, going back and forth between my dorm and school was just something I could do, I couldn't be one of those people who are all dressed up to go to parties or to go on dates.

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Once I got into class I took an in the back where there were barely any people, a few minutes later people started walking in settling into their seats and chatting about their plans and how the party from last weekend was off the hook. I could say I envy these people but, I'm nowhere close to envying them. They are just young adults who are blocking out real-world problems and partying their lives away.

"Hey Tae!" Min waved at me as he came up to the back with his friends, I slightly smiled and waved back. "Why are you saying hi to that weirdo?" I could hear his friends murmuring under their breaths, Min was no stranger to me. Though we attended the same schools from primary to secondary we never got close, I guess it was because of our social differences. Befriending a poor person was not an ideal idea for the rich kids but Min was totally different from all the spoiled little brats, he was nice, caring, and a reliable person.

At some point on the line I developed feelings for him, now I didn't want to be just his friend I wanted to be something more. I wanted to be someone he liked but who was I fooling, Min would never like a person like me in any form. He only helps me and says Hi to me out of pity nothing else.

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After class as I was about to walk out Min stopped me, "wait a second Tae," he said as he grabbed my arm. As I turned to look at him my heart skipped a beat, just one look at him made me weak to my knees. "Would you like to partner up for the project?" He asked, why was he asking me to partner up with him. He had a whole group of friends so why would he want to work with me, "Look if I partner up with any of my friends I'm not going to get anything done plus they are slow," he answered he knew what I was thinking.

I stayed quiet trying to process everything that was happening but the more I stayed quiet the more he clung to me. "Please Tae partner up with me please!" He begged as he held onto my arm even tighter. "Sure, I'll partner up with you." I said softly trying to keep my calm, "Okay thank you, I'll text you!" He said as he released me and ran back to his friends, "but you don't have my number." I mumbled as I watched the door close behind him, I shook my head followed by a sigh as I walked out of the class.

Before heading out of the school I headed to the bathroom, one thing I hated the most was using these bathrooms. People would do all sorts of stuff in here so, using these bathrooms could be so disgusting and nerve-racking. I walked into the bathroom praying not to find someone couple hooking up but, once I stepped foot in I walked into a whole scene.

"What a fucking disappointment, your égal so big but your dick so small!" A guy exclaimed as he walked out of a stall buttoning up his shirt. As he was about to walk out he bumped into me, "CANT YOU FUCKING SEE ME, MOVE YOU FUCKER!" He yelled as he pushed me aside causing me to bump into the wall. The other guy came out of the stall pulling up his pants and zipping it, I sighed as I fixed my backpack and my hair. All I wanted to do was use the bathroom in peace.

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After the most awkward and uncomfortable situation, I could finally go back to my dorm, but as I walked outside onto the campus I ran into Min and his group of friends. I tried my best to avoid them but somehow Min saw me and called out to me as he ran towards me.

"Tae!" He stepped in front of me with the same cute smile he always wears, "I just realized that I don't have your number," he stated as he pulled out his phone and handed it to me. I looked up at him then quickly took the phone dialed my number and saved it, "thank you." He smiled grabbed his phone back and walked back to his friends. As I looked back at him I noticed that his friends were laughing and giggling.

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"Are you friends with that fucking nerd?" Jin asked, "Ha me friends with him, never." Min chuckled, "I'm nice to him because he does things for me also," "he likes me so it's easy to boss him around." He added, "Good for you," Jin said "How did your hook-up go?" One of Min's asked him, "UGH! I don't even want to think about it, that bitch had a small ass dick!" Jin exclaimed, "I need a big dick, I can't keep on with unsatisfying sex anymore!" He cried.

TO BE CONTINUED