I dont care

The next morning when I woke up Jin was no longer lying next to me, I got up from the bed and for the first time in my life felt energized after sleeping. I grabbed my phone off the bed looked at the time and suddenly I heard a piano playing on the other side of the door.

"Could that be him?" I thought as I got up and headed downstairs where I found Jin sitting by the piano peacefully playing. This guy never fails to amaze me, it's like every day I see him it's a different kind of person from what I know.

"How are you feeling now?" I asked as I walked up to him, he stopped playing the piano but ignored me. Like I said it's like he changes every single time I see him, "is your head feeling okay?" I asked again, he sighed and looked at me. "I'm fine, so you can leave now." He replied his tone so cold, I guess I was right he was tired of following me around and had decided to go back to his old life. There was nothing I could do, matter fact I loved the fact that he didn't want to be around me anymore so that meant no more trouble for me.

"Okay, then I'll be taking my leave." I said as I headed towards the door, "What's your relationship with Min?" He suddenly asked, I looked back at him and our eyes met; this was another déjà vu. "Why are you asking me that?" I questioned, "Because I saw you guys kissing outside your apartment the other day." He remarked, "So he saw it."

"That was nothing, everything was out of nowhere so." I shrugged my shoulders, "So you're not dating him?" He questioned I shook my head, "Are you sleeping with him?" He added. What made him think that if I was not dating a person I'd be having intercourse with them? "I'll be leaving now," I said as I opened the door and headed out, it was too early to deal with this.

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As Jin sat at the piano, his fingers lingering over the keys, a sense of self-doubt crept in. He couldn't help but wonder why he was questioning Tae about his relationship with Min. It wasn't like him to pry into other people's personal lives, especially when it came to matters of the heart.

Yet, there was something about Tae that drew him in, something he couldn't quite put his finger on. Perhaps it was the way Tae carried himself with a quiet strength or the way he always seemed to be there when Jin needed him most.

But as he pondered these thoughts, Jin couldn't help but feel a sense of unease settling in the pit of his stomach. He had spent so long running from his own emotions, burying them beneath layers of indifference and detachment, that facing them head-on felt like stepping into the unknown.

And so, as he sat alone at the piano, Jin found himself grappling with a whirlwind of conflicting emotions. He longed for connection, for intimacy, yet feared the vulnerability that came with it. He wanted to break free from the cycle of emptiness and longing that had consumed him for so long, yet didn't know where to begin.

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In a dimly lit room stands two naked guys kissing and exploring each other's bodies, "you're much way better than your cousin." Daehyun stated as he sucked off Min's nipples, "Hmm, I'm all yours tonight." He moaned as he dropped his head back.

Daehyun carried him in his arms and smiled, "Don't go back on your word." He placed him down on the bed and started kissing him all over his body.

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3 hours later

"So tell me more about this guy that Tae has following around like a dog?" Daehyun asked as he got up from the bed, laying on the bed helpless Min turned around and faced him. "He's not important, it's just a guy from my department." Min replied, "What's his name?" He asked, "Why do you care?"

Daehyun shrugged, pulling on his boxers as he moved around the room. "Just curious, I guess. Jin seems... invested in him."

Min propped himself up on his elbows, watching Daehyun dress. "His name's Tae. But really, it's nothing serious. Just a casual thing."

Daehyun turned to face him, a smirk playing on his lips. "Just like us, huh?"

Min rolled his eyes, a faint smile tugging at the corners of his lips. "Yeah, just like us. Now, are you going to keep interrogating me or are we going to order some food?"

Daehyun chuckled, walking over to the bed and leaning down to kiss Min. "Food sounds good. But don't think I'm done asking questions just yet."

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3 weeks passed by and there was no sign of Jin, I would say I'm happy I'm back to my normal life and Routine but part of me is missing his high-pitched tone when his around me. His ongoing saga about his pets, and his sweet smile but also not to mention how he managed to make me smile.

But then again Jin is not a person I should be falling for, his a totally different guy who doesn't believe in romantic relationships and only wants intimacy. So though I've grown fond of him there's no way I could ever bring myself to be in a relationship with an unstable person.

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Spring is around the corner and I'm ready for a break, no people to bother me, no people to look at me weirdly, and most of all no Jin to pester me.

But boy was I totally wrong, not even two days into break Jin showed up at my apartment way more drunk than usual, I knew he had a drinking problem but this could actually kill him.

"Jin?" He pushed me aside and entered my house without even saying a word, "What are you doing here at this time of the night, and why are you this drunk?" I questioned as I locked the door behind him and helped him balance himself. He cupped my face in his hands looked at me and suddenly pushed me away, "What are you doing in my house!" He exclaimed, "LEAVE! I HATE YOU!" He shouted, "Why am I always caught up in this situation?" I questioned myself. I grabbed his arms and stabilized him, "If you hate me that much you should leave then because you're in my apartment and you're causing a commotion!" I stated.

He looked up at me and out of nowhere he started crying, "Do you also hate me? Please don't hate me Tae." He cried even louder and I couldn't help but feel bothered by this scene. I can't help but wonder what this guy went through to end a broken mess like this. He is a broken soul that needs fixing and is seeking in the wrong place, being around me is not going to fix him nor is finding comfort in intimacy going to help him.

I held him in my arms and patted his as he sobbed nonstop on my chest.

A few minutes later he went silent, and he fell into a deep sleep.

As Jin collapsed into a deep sleep in my arms, I couldn't help but feel a surge of conflicting emotions wash over me. Despite everything, seeing him in such a vulnerable state stirred something deep within me—a sense of protectiveness, perhaps, or maybe just a lingering empathy for the broken soul lying in my arms.

But as I held him close, I couldn't ignore the nagging feeling of frustration that gnawed at the edges of my mind. How many times had I found myself in this exact situation, picking up the pieces of Jin's shattered facade, only to watch helplessly as he spiraled back into his self-destructive patterns?

I knew that I couldn't continue to enable his behavior, to be his crutch whenever he stumbled. As much as I cared for him, I also knew that I needed to set boundaries, to protect my own well-being from being dragged down with his.

But as I looked down at Jin's peaceful face, his features softened in sleep, I couldn't bring myself to push him away. Despite everything, he was still the same Jin I had grown fond of, the same lost soul searching for solace in all the wrong places.

To be continued