Recovering. . .

'Could it be God?or it's just fate or I am just an answer to Mrs Davies' prayers'.I thought. But whatever it was ;I finally slept off, wishing not to wake the next morning because I'm literally not prepared to face this new life. I mean, I don't have the heart. . .

' knock...knock!Wake up baby, it's morning already'.It was Mrs Davies' voice that brought me back. I struggled to wake up,but really,it looks like God is not going to take me anytime soon. I muttered as I struggled to stand from the bed.

' Yes....s,I'm coming...ggg ma'. I stuttered.

It was time to recover from the loss and also a time to recover from being a loner for years for Mrs Davies,I guess. She was trying to play a role as a mother for the first time. How could that be? And she seems to be doing mummys' duties well...Ithought.

I also needed it, going back to college and pursuing the dream I started. I wasn't going to give up on all,like that. . .After I had caused enough trouble already.' I just must achieve something great and make my family happy wherever they are'. I thought as I took a cold bath that morning.

Few hours later...

I had taken breakfast and was already having my nap when we heard a sudden knock on the door. I was scared.

'I hope this is not another trouble?'. I thought.

Surprisingly,it were my friends and our college Principal.

'Oh,you all scared me !'. I blurted.

I was glad seeing my friends around again.While the Principal had a conversation with my new mum, should I say?,my friends and I tried to bring back lovely memories shared to erase what had happened. But, can such be erased?

It was just a short visit for the Principal and few minutes,he was done and was set to leave.

'Mirabel, Mrs Davies has assured me of your safety and we'll proceed with necessary documentation for the meantime,since you have no relative. She has offered for an adoption. Just let us know if you'll be comfortable with the decision'.Meanwhile,the scholarship you receive from the competition will take you through college,so all has been sorted hun..ThePrincipal called me aside and said and all I could just say was 'okay sir'.

I was given a week to recuperate and resume back to school and within the few days I had, I had gotten better than I expected. My new mum even made it easier,I went through different therapy sessions because at a point I was almost losing my head,day dreaming and nightmares became an everyday thing. Seeing Ethan sorrowful,saying I caused his death,Rhian's cry,mum's solemn voice of comfort and dad's angry eyes staring at me from afar. . .It was overwhelming. Depression was setting in,I would constantly blame myself for being the cause of their death. I was losing it.

Mrs Davies sometimes would have to stay with me all day,seeing me through the therapy sessions, I could say,it wasn't easy for her too.

Janice and Gladys couldn't do much,as they had to shuttle school work with mine.

But with the little time they had after school work,they'll take me out to have fun and I was getting better.

I couldn't make it through the one week that I was given,it extended for the rest of the term,so I couldn't finish the term with them because it was difficult concentrating in class and many times, I was referred back home.

When the term ended,my friends had enough time to help me get better. I remember one of our outings.

It was a long day outing that we had planned. So,we went to a nice restaurant in town. Janice always decide the restaurant and she always choose the nicest and expensive ones,because why not?She had it all, a rich kid. She spends however she wants.

I struggled to get a nice cloth to wear cos, I'm not even in the mood to dress nicely like I always do-the fashionista herself. I just put on a short flowing Chevron pink dress which had no sleeve with my Crocs and wore a simple make up which Janice forced me to do.

We walked in quietly and found a nice spot to sit,and then we ordered different meals. I ordered for meat pie and fruit juice,while Janice chose chicken and chips with an apple juice. Gladys was not a fan of junks,she ordered jollof rice with Chicken wings and a cold bottle water.

As we ate silently,Janice started the talk.

'Mira, it's been a while we did this and I am really glad we got the chance to do this again. Thank God we didn't lose you'.She beamed as she streched her arms to give a hug.

Just before we pulled from each other,Gladys joined. Won't you girls hug me too? She retorted.

Sit there! aren't you supposed to join? Janice bluffed.

'See,girls,look back'.Gladys replied. Just then, Janice pulled her arms off me to look back.

'That guy has been staring at you since we got here'.Gladys said.

'Who?'.Janice blurted.

'He's been staring at Mirabel,he wouldn't just take off his eyes as much as he tries not to make it obvious'. Gladys said and giggled.

'Do you think it'll be you?(referring to Janice whose face had changed suddenly). Everyone knows that Mira's beauty is irresistible,the hot queen for herself.'Is it her beautiful fair complexion and small rounded nose?or her smooth lips and face,no pimples! just imagine,plus her perfect shape.check,check, check,sharply snapping her fingers as she said.

I smiled.

'Don't mind this naughty girl, Janice.You know,she doesn't know how to talk. . . I replied as I tried to make Janice feel better and not get jealous,because when it comes to things like this,Janice gets jealous easily.

I'm sure if our school wasn't for girls alone,she would have forced herself on many guys. . .that was just her, trying to always feel loved by everyone no matter what.

' The guy was starting to irritate me really,cos why not?'.He had caused enough harm already.

Moreso,I was not ready to date any guy.'Haba,not even at this time. . .' I thought silently. Let him stare very well,he'd probably get tired after all.

Then some hours later, after having so much fun together,we were set to leave. . .

The outing really helped to put away all thoughts and I got revived ready to start afresh. . .