Will you be my permanent girlfriend?

Chapter two hundred and fifty

Anna couldn't control her tears. She felt so overwhelmed. She couldn't believe what was happening. Alexander Williams was telling her that he was madly in love with her. How did this happen? She had been trying so hard to forget him, knowing that nothing can ever happen between them. She had been trying to bury her feelings for him because she couldn't continue to love someone who wasn't capable of reciprocating it. She was tired of wishing and hoping that he would be hers someday. This was like a dream. If it was a dream, she hoped that she would never wake up from it. 

The moment she felt Xander's fingers on her cheeks, she knew that this was real. She wasn't dreaming. He was wiping away her tears with his fingers. Tears kept rolling down her cheeks. Another would fall the moment he wiped her cheeks. 

"Xander, you said that you couldn't fall in love. You said that it was foolish. How can I trust that you aren't telling me all of these to just get me in your bed?" Anna asked and Xander sighed in frustration. This was harder than he thought. What was he expecting before? That she would fly into his arms the moment he declares his love to her? He wished that he hadn't told her a thing about him not believing in love. 

"I thought wrong, Anna. Love is a beautiful feeling. I think that I didn't embrace it because it's something I hadn't felt before. Or maybe I felt it but didn't know that it was love. But the one I felt before I met you wasn't this intense. It was just the love I had for my family and friends. But the one I have for you is much deeper, Anna. I can feel it. 

When you were kidnapped, I wasn't myself. I couldn't do a single thing properly. I didn't go to work. I used my resources to find you, and when I couldn't, I felt empty. I wanted to die, Anna. I felt like there was nothing I could hold on to in the world. I felt like a large part of me was gone, Anna. If it's about sex, there is no way I would feel that way. When I found you, I felt so relieved. I was afraid of losing you again. I was just too foolish to admit that I was in love with you. I didn't want to believe it. But now, I'm very sure that I love you, Anna. I'll die if I ever lose you again. 

Alright, I'll make a deal with you so that you'll trust that this isn't just about sex. If you accept me, I promise that I wouldn't have sex with you until you want it. I'll wait till you are ready, even if it'll kill me. Just accept me, Anna. I can't imagine my life without you. I want just you and no one else and I would love you to be my girlfriend. Please don't say no, Anna."

Before Xander could say anything further, Anna hugged Xander tightly, her tears fell on his shirt but Xander couldn't care more. All he wanted was Anna. 

"Do you know how long I've been waiting to hear this? I've cried more than I can count because I thought that you would never love me back, Xander and that is why I've been trying to avoid you, except that it has been hard for me. Very hard, in fact. 

I love you too, Xander. I've been in love with you for a long while now. I just couldn't tell you because I was scared. I was scared that I would lose my job since you said that I couldn't fall in love with you. Wait, what about the contract?" Anna asked.

"Fuck those papers, Anna. I'm terminating the contract myself. You haven't answered my question yet. Would you be my permanent girlfriend, Anna?" Xander asked, stressing the 'permanent' and Anna laughed. 

"Yes, Mr Williams. I will be your permanent girlfriend." Anna said, nodding her head at Xander.

Before Anna could say another word, Xander captured her lips. The kiss felt like he was marking her as his. His kiss was gentle, yet, very possessive. She kissed him back, her hand playing with his hair, her fingers intertwined in his hair. Xander sucked on her lips like it was tasty candy and Anna found herself leaning further into him, pulling him close to her.