I'm madly in love with you, Anna Houston

Chapter two hundred and forty-nine

In Xander's office.

Anna abruptly withdrew to catch her breath. She was still panting hard when Xander captured her lips again in his. This time, his kisses were not gentle as before. Instead, they were hard and demanding. He sucked on her lips voraciously as though she was the last woman on Earth. He leaned in further into her and Anna felt his erection which was way bigger than before. She felt him poke her and her eyes widened in surprise. She had never felt anyone like this before. He was actually her first, but this was the first time she would feel him this hard against her.

Anna tried to push Xander away but he was too strong for her. He kissed her till she was breathless again and when he eventually withdrew, Anna gasped for air. Her lips felt swollen. He was about to kiss her again when she spoke. 

"Xander, you are- you are- poking me," Anna finally said, pointing to his erection. Xander didn't even have an idea that he was this hard. He cursed under his breath the moment he saw what she was talking about. He ran his hand through his hair in frustration. 

"Do you know why I'm like this, Anna?" Xander's voice was a little loud and Anna nodded in fear. 

"I'll tell you. I'm as hard as a steel pole because I've not had sex in a very long time." Xander stressed the 'very' in his statement. 

Anna's eyes widened for the fear of her life. Without knowing, she had awakened his beast because she wanted a kiss. There was no way he meant that he wanted to have sex with her.

"Do you know why?" Xander asked again and Anna nodded in the negative again. She couldn't even use words. Her vocabulary flew away the moment she heard that he hadn't had sex in a while. She looked like an innocent child that was being scolded by a strict parent. 

"This is what I wanted to tell you." Xander shut his eyes and his face contorted in a grimace. He looked like he was in pain. 

"Are you alright, Xander?" She said holding his arm.

"I- I'm far from alright. Just listen to me first. I've been trying to talk to you, but you've been avoiding me. I was going to tell you this before we continued kissing, but you didn't want to listen. Do you wanna know why I haven't had sex in a while?" Xander asked again and Anna gulped down saliva. 

"It's because my body wants only you, Anna. I tried, alright? I tried to meet random women to have sex with them, but I just couldn't. I don't know what you did to me, but I'd rather not have sex than have sex with anyone other than you. My body has been craving you. I've been trying so hard to hold it but the more I try, the more I want you badly. Anna, I want you. Only you. You might find this hard to believe but, I've fallen in love with you," Xander blurted out. 

Anna's eyes opened widely, her mouth went agape, and her heart throbbed in her chest which was rising and falling. 

"Anna, I thought I was crazy. I know that I told you that I can't ever fall in love...like hell, I know that, but, this is something that I can't help. I don't fucking know how it happened."

"No, Xander. It's not love that you feel. You just think it is because you've never fallen in love before. I think it's just lust. Wanting my body is completely different from wanting me. I think that all you want is to have me in your bed to fulfil your desires. That's not love in itself," Anna said, trying to blink away the tears that are already on her cheeks. She didn't know when she started crying. 

"Anna, I know what I'm feeling. I can assure you that it's not just about sex. If it was just about sex, trust me when I say that I would have lured you into my bed. Do you know how many times I restrained myself from touching you, Anna? You turn me on without even knowing it. You do it effortlessly. If it was about sex, I would have acted on it, Anna. You come to my house often. I see you in the office, yet I haven't done that far with you, even when I badly want to. This is the first time I want to treat someone right. 

Before I met you, I'm always about sex. I never cared about how any of my sexual partners felt. But with you, it's different, Anna. Just now, I wanted to take you right here, but the moment you told me that you weren't ready, somehow, I controlled myself. It's only because I feel something greater than lust for you, Anna. This is the first time something like this is happening to me. This feeling is foreign to me, and that is why I know that it isn't just about sex, Anna. I'm madly in love with you, ANNA HOUSTON." Xander held her arms and Anna felt fresh tears trickle down her flushed cheeks.