"Who is he?"
"Master—"
"Answer my question?" Master William yelled. I could hear my heart drumming in my own ears.
"Do you have any interest in him?" He questioned, clenching his jaw.
I nodded, immediately earning myself a hard stinging slap on my left cheek that had me landing on the floor. Tears stung under my eyes, I didn't dare look up. I didn't dare stand up.
"He wants to marry me.." I finally answered. "I apologize, If I angered you Master. I'm not good enough, I don't deserve to be here. I would like to go work in the field where I belong. You deserve better. I'm not the best looking person as you have mentioned. If I don't take this marriage proposal, I?fear I will not have any other future proposals." I said these words hoping they would please him and he would grant me permission to leave. It had been three months since he broke my virginity. Three months of being spoiled and ravaged by him. I hope, my agreeing to being worthless would give him the satisfaction to allow me to take my leave.
"I will not disclose this to anyone, I promise." I added, my tears just kept flowing down my cheeks. I wouldn't let him see me cry.
After a moment of silence, he spoke. "...don't you ever call yourself not good enough, are you blind?!" He yelled and I flinched. "You must be as blind as a bat if you think you aren't good enough. Stand up!"
Praying he doesn't hit me again, I stood but kept my eyes down.
"Panashe.." He said calmly, he had never said my name before and I had actually believed he didn't know it. "Look at me!" He demanded. It was hard, I couldn't keep eye contact.. I was intimidated.
"What is going on in here? You left Liam unattended!"
Thanking God for this interruption. I immediately rushed out of Master William's office.
Lady Tracy snarled with disgust as I left.
"Liam!" I called.
The boy immediately came racing, I picked him up and placed him on the wooden kitchen counter. I asked him what he wanted to have for lunch. He was always such a happy child, with his mothers green eyes and blonde hair. He was just adorable. It wasn't my fault that Master William had dragged me to his office after he read a letter I had received. He invaded my privacy.. did that even matter since he invaded everything I own including my vagina.
Dear Panashe
I had a wonderful time, thank you for taking that walk with me. You strike me as a very intelligent woman... not just beautiful with an impeccable body but smart too. I haven't stopped thinking about your smile. In fact I haven't stopped thinking about you at all. I walked to the Gallagher ranch and was informed that you work for junior Gallagher. I hope you don't mind me sending this letter to your working address.
My father always said when you meet the woman whom you will marry, you will immediately know. I'm absolutely infatuated by you. I do not know if you get this often - you most probably do - but you're absolutely stunning. Such a kind soul with a good heart. I want my kids to have your golden brown eyes and your smile. If I wished for my daughter to have a body like yours.. I don't think I would be able to chase away all the flock of boys around her.
I would love to spend some more time with you if given the chance. I work throughout the week but I'm allowed to have a day off on Sundays. The Cunningham family are a very nice bunch. They even took me to school. I'd like to think they're better than the Gallagher's. If we marry, you would live here with me. I know the Gallagher's have a history of taking advantage of women from our kind. I just hope I can protect you before that occurs. They have been known to fetishize black woman, it is no banter. I do not want to see you get hurt.
I can safely say, I love you.
Ps. Please respond with this address below. I can't wait to see you again.
Love?
Elliot
I was getting ready for bed when, Master William came in without knocking. I was in my undergarments, I understand he has seen it all before but I still felt nervous under his eyes. I then remembered..
"I apologize Master, I have been awfully occupied. I haven't had time to.. trim my—" I said looking at the floor.
"Rest assured, I am not here for.. that!" He said. "I expect you to look at me when I talk to you!"
Struggling to keep eye contact, I faced up. He towered over my 5'2 frame.
"Have you ever been kissed before?" He questioned. Believe it or not. I hadn't, he only ever filled me up sexually but never ever touched anywhere near my face.
"N-no."
He stepped closer.
"Master William, should I strip and lie down." I questioned nervously.
"No, I want to kiss you."
That had my heart pummeling out of my left rib cage.
"I'm disgusting!" I blurted out. "I mean to say Master William, you took my virginity. The least you could do is leave my first kiss. I beg of you!"
This made him chuckle.
I didn't find anything amusing.
"I'm assuming you plan on giving it to Elliot? Poor Elliot... claiming that my family has a fetish for black women."
"He is to be my husband." blurted out, sweating like a pig. "He isn't exactly wrong."
"Are you that desperate?!"
I couldn't fathom all this because this was the first time he had actually conversed with me ever.
"He thinks I'm beautiful, I want to feel beautiful." I'm also annoyed by my own lack of confidence.
"Do you not think you're beautiful without anyone telling you? Do you not look in the mirror?" He spat.
"Master William, should I lie down.." I asked again.. at this point I just wanted to sleep. It had been a long day.. the sooner he started the sooner he would finish and I would be able to clean myself up then sleep.
"You're really pushing it now."
"Master—"
"Quit being obnoxious, it's Will."
I didn't say anything, I just blinked. He stepped closer. His hand cupped my chin, his thumb rubbing my bottom lip. I gulped down a feeling of fright and nervousness. This man's only mission was to ruin me.
And he did.
Once his lips touched mine, I was soaked. My skin tingled, my nipples hardened and everything felt like it was spinning. Removing his lips from mine he only smirked. I uncomfortably moved away from him. He didn't say a word as he left me flabbergasted.