End Of the break...
Step by step getting closer to my destination even tho I didn't want the break to end. I need to go to school I had a headache from staying up late since I wanted to finish a book before the break ends...
I didn't have a good school experience since first grade and this year is going to be my 14th birthday... as well as me starting eighth grade every time I went to school I wanted the day to end that was always the only thing in my mind I was bullied... Left out...without me even doing anything. Every time I entered my class I felt like a nuisance... Nobody needed me there and thoughts like that.
I tried to convince myself I was just beating myself over or overthinking but deep down I knew that was the case. Every single one of my friends turned on me one by one as I slowly accepted... I should put on a persona at school so maybe I can feel less sad. That's the decision I made for eighth grade I might have a miserable school life again... But I will probably be better knowing I'm acting my way through.
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On my way I stopped by the park where a lot of stray cats and dogs gather since there was some time before school starts and I dont wanna get there yet... I love animals Its prob because I hate myself that I want to make animals happy. I really dont know how those two things connect but they do and I can atleast realize that much.
I approach a stray cat and I lean down and reach my hand to the cat and wait for it to come to me so I can pet it... After 2 minutes It finallys starts walking towards my hand it leans its heads near and I finnaly start to pet it *puurrr*purrr*
As I pet the cat my stress goes away ad I gather up enough confidence to go on my way I say goodbye to the cat like its a person and start walking to school once again. After a while I reach the gates of my new school I start shaking to gather up courage I slap myself in the cheeks. And I finnaly manage to step inside school...
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I look at the class boards to find which class Im in I slowly check the classes one by one 8-1...Im not in there lets see 8-2 My names not up there I slowly check all classes until I reach class 8-6 and I see my name on there so I start asking people where class 8-6 Is... I wish thats what I would have done but noo I just check all the classes in the building.
I finnaly manage to find class 8-6 I take a look at the board to look for my seat number (𝐀𝐮𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐫𝐬 𝐍𝐨𝐭𝐞: 𝐒𝐜𝐡𝐨𝐨𝐥𝐬 𝐮𝐬𝐮𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐩𝐮𝐭𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐭𝐮𝐝𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐬 𝐒𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐀𝐫𝐫𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐬 𝐨𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐛𝐥𝐚𝐜𝐤𝐛𝐨𝐚𝐫𝐝)
I find my seat and take a seat on it As I realize nobodys In class but me... I guess I came in to early *Yawnn* I was still tired from sleeping late last night ... "I guess I can take a quick nap"
I used my jacket as a blanket and my arms as a pillow and finnaly my tired eyes finnaly got some rest...
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