STITCHES

It's been weeks after Samantha's Parents passed on, after the burial Samantha felt it was perfectly fine to resume work even though, the office had given her enough time to grief and recover properly as they didn't want it to affect her work.

Lost in thoughts.....

She could feel the pain of how much she hate herself for never allowing herself to get to know her step-dad, enough to experience what life would have been if only she gave herself the chance to love him as her dad even tho she knew he wasn't trying to replace her late dad, now she didn't even have him to call a father.

She could still hear her mom's voice especially when she laughed everything reminded her about them in the house.

These days she spent her time cuddled up in her mom's sweaters & PJs she couldn't literarily leave the room......as she felt more comfortable in the room than anywhere in the house...... Everything seemed blurry at every turn she took around the house she felt she was in a ghost town.

If only her mom were here things would have been different.................... so lost in thought she dint even notice when Jade walked

"Hey you okay?"

Jade asked looking unsure if she came at the wrong time!

I'm fine Samantha said, just...just I miss them I never thought I'd feel this hurt. Mom said she would be back and I really don't know if she knows the pain I'm going through right now, worse part of this was that I never got to know my Step-Dad as much I would have loved to know the kind of person he was.

Samantha kept sorbing hard, she felt a pain worse than she ever felt especially that Damian was away for a conference all she wanted at this point was to be Cuddled up in his arms.....

Hey you sure about going to the Office? I mean looking at you now I really can't imagine you at the office breaking down, so if possible you could still stay back a few days and get better before resuming the office, Jade said..

No. I said I'd be resuming tomorrow and tomorrow it is, I'd only keep delaying the files on my desk, it's piling up and I think it's better that I'd sort them out.

Can you imagine yourself, Jade said outta anger I'm worried about your mental health and you're bothered about your desk at the office, are you trying to tell me my efforts to see that you get better for how many weeks now is just so you can sort your desk out and not you getting stronger is that what you trying to say ??

I really want to get pissed but I'm trying to make you feel better and I'd only pretend that I didn't hear what you said just now...

I'm sorry, I really don't want to be burden to you or anyone Jade, Samantha said.

I want to get better but I'm also pulling you back from finishing what you have to do at the office you'd get queried because you keep leaving the office to see me, you either late or you leave the office and I really feel bad about that.

There you go again, I have little or less work at the office Jerry the person who I share my desk with covers up by doing the work I'm meant to do which gives me more time to spend to see you are alright, you really don't need to worry about me. I'm Fine, Jade affirmed.

Thank you for all you do, sometimes I wonder if I could ever do anything without you, you tolerate my bad habits, you overlook allot that even Damian nags about, thank you for sticking with me especially with my parents not being here anymore. Sometimes I still hear their voices and i hold back tears but they don't stay in, I'm trying to be fine Jade but it's not even looking as though I'm making efforts to getting better.

You will he fine girlfriend, it just time you'd be all fine. When's Damian coming back? I really don't know why he couldn't even take some sort of leave and come over to see you... Jade said sounding as though he doesn't care.

I told him to finish first before coming over, I want to look better than I look now. So it's okay he's away I don't want him seeing this cry baby looking all messy and goofy. I'd make something so you could eat, do you care for coffee or just tea? Samantha asked..

Don't worry I'd do that myself you just go take your bathe or you want me to do that myself too? Looking at Samantha mischievously, Samantha giggled at first but burst out into laughter having tears in her eyes. She hadn't felt this better in a while now since the passing of her parents. She hugged jade so tight before going to have her bath, feeling all better than moments before Jade came in.

Hey you'd be fine okay, Jade smiled giving her an assurance of being okay. Now go wash up while I fix up something for you to eat, you look like someone who's been struck by lightening... They both laughed.

Just as Samantha left to have her bath Damian called and Jade picked up the phone.

Hey Cuddles,

Hey hey, it's Jade she said laughing out loud in the sitting room.

She went to have her bath you really need to come and see her she misses you and it's really not nice that you are so far away from her when she need you most.

I'm really sorry but she said I shouldn't bother I knew she wasn't okay but she insisted that I stayed back and finished up the conference. I should be done by next weekend so I'd make efforts to check on her.

Just tell her I miss her and do take care of her she's too fragile and I know how much she overthink things especially now that her mom's not here anymore. Thanks for coming around it really means allot you a good friend.

Hey it's okay, I mean why are friends if I can't spare time just to check up on her and make sure she's all fine. Can you imagine she was insisting she resume tomorrow because she feels she has allot of work to do at the office and nobody's attending to it?

Wow, this allot worse than I thought. Damian said...

You really don't have to worry about it, I took care of that already. She'd be home for sometime, I'd make sure of it.

Take care if both of you, got to go I have something to do.

Alright do take care, Damian said ending the call.