HIDDEN PAIN

I remember the day I fell for you

Can't forget even if I wanted to

It drives me insane

Think am hearing your name everywhere I go

Seeing your face

But I know it's all in my head

Losing sleep

Losing weight

Losing my mind

Getting sick

Going back and forth to the hospital

No one knows why

No one knows every night I cry

Every night I die

They think am sick

Going to therapy

But I never open up

Dementia,asthma, diabetes

Depression,Anorexia...

Going through all this

For a person who never sees

Mom's scared

Dad is stressed

Sisters tired

And am just alone

Faking a smile cause you have to

Pretending to be fine cause you have to

It's just me and my pain

No one to talk too

They all hurt you

Call me self centered

Selfish

But I was fine till I was broken

Now the pain is just choking

No one has ever known

Cause I have never shown

But it hurts

It hurts Alot

And I can't...

It's just too much

Sometimes am too tired to cry

Don't blame me if I want to die

Cause you don't know how hard I try

I don't write to make things up,I don't write just to rhyme,I write cause am hurt,I write cause I have no one to talk too and now I feel like am losing it....it's hurts to be strong.

It's just a poem to you,cause you never see the tears that fall on my screen Everytime I write...