HE ASKED ME HOW HE HURT ME
He asked how he hurt me
He still doesn't see
How am no longer me
He still doesn't get it
Maybe he doesn't regret it
Now am crying my eyes out
Hurting all over again
Why did he chat me up
Why did I respond
When I know it will end with me in tears
Now I wonder if he even really cares
He asked how he hurt me
Could he stand the sight of me in the hospital
Looking pale and numb,and almost lifeless cause I OD(over dose)
Did he fucking know i was unconscious for two bloody days
Did he know he broke me in thousand of ways
Could he stand d sight of the cuts on my body
the sight of me crying in my bedroom
Crying silently with my hands covering my mouth
Could he fucking!stand the sight of me
Now I look like a walking skeleton!
Did he know how hard it was to suffer from memory loss
I forgot my own bloody birthday!
Going through therapy
Talking to a stranger about ur issues
Not one of ur family knows you are suffering
No bloody friends
No one to talk too
Him breaking up with me
Right after I relocate to a new environment
New world
All my friends left me
My bestie blocked me
And then my boyfriend broke up with me
Was this not enough to drive me insane!
Going to hospitals!
I lost my fucking self!
Could he stand the sight of me punching my bathroom walls
Crying so hard
Keeping it all inside not to make a sound
Hating yourself for months
Thinking it was all your fault!
When you try healing and fixing you
He comes again
Gives you something to feel
Then he leaves again
Staring at my phone for goddamn weeks
Just for a call
Waiting for just a simple hi
He doesn't know how deep this hurts
He doesn't know how broken I am
I almost killed my fucking self for you!
And he asked me how he hurt me
Uncle almost took me to a mad house
They thought it was crazy to cut yourself,to try to kill yourself
I was called crazy
Almost went to rehab
Now I have to smile,pretend
That am ok
Just so I don't have to be called crazy
Your own mum calls you crazy
He asked me how he hurt me
He asked me.....God!
Am done
Am tired!
I've had enough
All I wanted was to fall in love
But now I realize ... that maybe I wasn't loved in the first place
I can't do this, this night
Am too weak to fight
The tears win
I've had just enough
He has said it all
All I went through was nothing!
God!
Am a fool
Am stupid!
Am a fucking idiot!
Love is a son of a bitch!
And am an idiot
This is not a poem. Just my THOUGHTS.....and right now am falling apart,and I regret falling for a someone who doesn't even know when I get hurt,who doesn't value me...I hope he sleeps knowing I feel like dying right now!...I never asked to be broken this hard
I loved him for than I ever loved my fucking self!....guess the jokes on me now
Am gonna go fall apart right now,crying my goddamn eyes....cause I just I went through so much for a guy who doesn't deserve even a single tear....but it hurts Alot cause I still love that bloody bastard!