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Chapter 14

I Can Confide In You

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As soon as they got home Remus went back to his chair and actually slept. Sirius was about to go sit at the kitchen table but Harry grabbed onto his shirtsleeve and becan to drag him up the stairs.

"Sirius I need to talk to you"

They went into Harry's bed room and Sirius laid down on Harry's bed, resting his head on his arms. He looked at Harry.

"So what did you want to tell me?" asked Sirius

"I wanted to say that I was sorry"

Harry went lie down on top of Sirius. Sirius wrapped his arms around him. He was happy that Harry was acting more like his normal self and not the monster that he had been that morning. It soothed him.

"You don't have to be sorry. You were mad, that's all"

"Yes I do! I was afraid of you, that's why I was acting this way. Bob told me to talk to you, he said that it was the only way to overcome my fear"

"You were afraid of me? Don't worry Harry, there's nothing to be afraid of"

"I thought you would beat me just like Uncle Vernon did"

Sirius visibly paled.

"Harry, I would never hurt you, you know that. You uncle is a drunken idiot, not everyone is like him"

"I know you would never do that but-I just had a relapse, that's all"

"Don't worry Harry, your uncle will never hurt you again, not as long as you're with me. I'll never let anything like that happen to you"

"I was so scared!" Harry whispered

He clutched onto Sirius' shirt and began to cry. Sirius rubbed soothing circles on his back. Harry calmed down as he felt Sirius' comfort.

"What about that nightmare you had in the car, what was it about?"

"It was dream about you beating me. You were acting just like Vernon, it was so scary"

"What did I do in the dream?"

"First you got mad at me for dropping something and used a whip on my back, then you used the killing curse on me-God! You probably hate me now"

Sirius cupped Harry's chin and forced him to look into his eyes.

"Of course I don't hate you! I love you! You are the most important thing in my life and you mean the world to me"

Suddenly Harry pulled his face away from Sirius' warm hand and looked away. Sirius desperately tried to look into his eyes.

"Harry, what's wrong?"

Harry didn't respond.

"Harry, you can tell me, what did I say?"

"It's just that nobody ever told me that they loved me before"

"You've never felt loved before?"

Harry shook his head. Sirius tightened his grip around Harry and tucked his head under his chin as he too began to cry. The poor boy, how could he have lived that way?

"I love you very much Harry, I am here to protect you. I only do this because I love you, you're my son Harry"

Harry looked up.

"What do you mean?"

"Well, I think of you like a son so I guess you are my son since I take care of you and love you and everything"

"And then you'll be my father"

"Right"

"Sirius?"

"Yes Harry?"

"Can I call you Dad?"

Sirius almost flipped. Harry actually wanted to call him Dad! It was a dream come true.

"Of course you can! That would be the greatest thing in the world!"

"Really?"

"Of course!"

"I love you Dad"

"I love you too Son"

Harry's eyes brightened. Sirius did love him! He had a family all along and never knew it!

"Don't worry Son, it's going to be okay"