Thank you, Laureen

"Visiting hours start in an hour," Laureen informs me, "we can do this! Also, they're going to let us visit them together, mostly because I can walk. But don't worry, you'll walk with me soon!"

"Yeah!" I say though I'm still not sure. I don't have much hope for myself, but I know Laureen does. She believes in me, and I'm grateful for that. So I'm going to get better, just for her. "I'm going to walk soon!" This time I say it with confidence, I believe it now. Thank you, Laureen.

"We're going to meet them here, in your room." She mentions, "Just to make it easier for you. Besides, they'd have to be coming to one of our rooms. We'll have dinner after they leave, so I think that'll help with your recovery."

"Yeah..." Right, I have to eat. I haven't done that in a while, so today would be a good start. The lack of food is probably what put me in such an awful state. Laureen is up and walking, she could probably even leave soon. I'll be left alone, all I want to do is be with her. So, I have to get better! I'm going to get better for Laureen!

"I still feel kinda sore," She admits, "but I feel pretty good overall. I feel like I could run a marathon! I have so much energy, it's unbelievable! I could probably go home soon, maybe even back to school. I just feel so good, I feel unusually happy. It's weird."

"I get the feeling, but it's good you might be able to go home soon! I hope I can leave soon, I just need to build up some strength. I'll be able to walk soon, I promise!" I've never felt so determined in my life, I never have motivation. Not until now. Thank you, Laureen.

"That's the spirit! With that attitude, you can do anything!"

"Hell yeah, I can!" Wow, this feels good! I feel so pumped! Laureen has brought out the best in me, I don't deserve someone like her. No! Don't think that! I do deserve her. I deserve some love. It's not a crime to love myself, it doesn't make me a narcissist either. It's ok to love yourself. Laureen has shown me that.

"Great! Anyway, I'm going to head back to my room for a bit. I gotta call my family. My parents are always busy and I have a lot of siblings. They can't exactly all come here, let alone get along. I'm just going to check up with them. I'm probably going to leave soon, and you will too! We can get back to school so soon, I'm not sure whether I like it or not. Don't get me wrong, I love seeing our friends. What I don't like is going to school itself."

"Yeah, I get what you mean. I agree I'd rather sleep."

"Haha, that's a mood. Anyway, I'll see you later." And with that, she's out the door.

I can't believe she's already better. We've barely been here and she was in the middle of the crash, not me. My lack of eating has taken a toll on my body, but I'll get better! I have hope for the future. Not last resort hope, but real hope. I hope that things will be better than ok, they'll be great. I feel like my eyes have been opened, and I have to give credit to Laureen. Thank you, Laureen.