My ex

As we're there talking and comforting Mark, the bell rings. Another day in hell. Oh well, at least it's more bearable here. Sort of.

I go through my first three classes. All are boring like usual, but whatever. I couldn't care less. School isn't going to change, which is really a problem. It's just reality.

However, I can't get what Laureen said off my mind. I guess I'm not in love with her, but isn't love after the first two days a little extreme? But then she's just a crush. I've had a few of those before, but none of them are like her.

I mean, I did date a girl at my last school, but it was only for a few weeks. I never told my parents, I wasn't ready to come out of the closet. I'm not sure if I'll ever be ready when the moment comes, but I'm more ready and willing now.

I can't go through another relationship like that though. I liked her, but I started to see what she was really like. She was lesbian, so she wasn't faking it just to make fun of me. I mean, we broke up because we didn't really get along. She wasn't really toxic like Evelyn, we just couldn't get along. It came to the point where we had an arguement and broke it off.

But that's in the past now. Maybe one day I can get with Laureen. I doubt it, she could be straight. I mean, lesbian woman are actually known for falling for straight women. It happens a lot, actually. I mean, you can't change straight women to date you, just like you can't change a gay person to date you. It's really not ok.

And it's lunch again. I don't really think Evelyn will be there. She's probably behind bars at this point. Unless her parents bail her out. I hate it when that happens, but maybe Evelyn realized she was wrong. I mean, when we were arguing she just turned around and left to be alone. She didn't snap. Apparently she's known for snapping and getting in fights.

I'm not going to lie, I feel like there's always something going wrong in my life. There's a few times when something will be good, but I wait for it to go back down the drain. The first day was great, but yesterday was hell. Hopefully today will be better. I can only hope.