Hurt

It's as if we have no distance in between, we're just side by side.

I could feel his beating heart and I could tell his breathing has paced than the normal after we locked into a staring contest which lasted no more than five seconds,

but really felt an eternity.

It's always like that with him.

I could always tell if he is around.

It's so easy to locate his pair of eyes from a sea of people,

in a heart beat.

This must be what they say,

the soulmate thing.

Just in our case, soul mates who keep on choosing to lead different oceans with the same fold of shore.

But we keep on coming back to each other because life gives us different chances.

In our case, chances of getting hurt.

Chances to see glimpses of what could have been and what should have been.

Nevertheless, we still get the chance to see each other.

But maybe having hurt over and over is better than to have not fought for a chance of loving every time.

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They judged a school event as members of the panel.

Always on the same situations but that's that. They tend to keep on choosing to not choose each other every time.. With reasons out of loving each other too well.

He leaned a bit towards her and said,

"You were always the charming one. The contestants remind me of you every time."

She scrunched her eyebrows meaning for him to elaborate further.

And just like the other times,

he would easily pick up on what she meant.

"One contestant shows audacity, the other, beauty, then the next, grace and my favorite, wit.", he continued.

She can't help the silent laughter bubbling inside her head.

When is he going to change?

"We are judging the team muses. So who cares about being smart when all they've got to do is walk like Aphrodite and smile like Audrey.", she retorted.

Although, he always detects character with simple clues. She reminded herself silently.

At that, he looked at her pensively. Gradually looking into her hazel eyes to her perfectly sculpted nose and plump lips and affirming himself in his head that yes, this woman, indeed, is a walking goddess- Athena and Aphrodite in one.

His version of a goddess for himself.

Maybe it's the reason why he was and still is enamored by her. She's this Athena, Artemis, Hera and Chaos rolled in one.

And he detected that on that very lucky day six years ago. It was a lonely day for him. A part of him was ripped apart when his Dad succumbed to cancer and he was so helpless that he just can't do anything about it to not happen.

On that fateful day, I saw the face that launched a gazillion of emotions in me I never thought of having and keeping.

Of course that's what captures an elusive heart.

Without him knowing, she looked at him again sideways with that hooded and dreamy eyes and asked silently within herself..

Not really sure if she meant the universe or the higher being to hear her heart's humble and genuine plea,

If there's still a chance for us in this lifetime, would you take it with me?

With that she deeply sighed.

But maybe he heard that so by instinct, she diverted her sight as he was about to look at her direction..

Little did she know, he looked right back at her after that and whispered,

"I would always take a chance with you. It's just more difficult now. I always choose you and you keep on choosing what's there next to me.

This cycle is giving further and deeper heartaches after every time. I could only take so much."

Maybe just maybe, there really are emotion fairies which carry through the wind and lead where emotions are to be led into..

Genuine emotions.. Deep-rooted ones.. And time challenging..

In five,

She glanced back at him and gave him her signature million dollar smile.

Awed at the beauty of this woman. Charmed yet again, he touched the part near his heart.

How could it still be the same after all these years?

Lost in her smile and the world disappeared..

What was that again?

At one smile, he forgot what being hurt over and over is by the same person.

Just how much could he take?

Hurting.

What love is there without pain?

What's that they say?

If a love is true, it hurts.