Azekah
The sound and smell of rain always seemed to calm me down.
The soft pitter patter against the car
distracted me from the situation at hand.
I watched as the raindrops raced each other down the window .
The smell of rain always reminded me that I was alive.
I used to believe that the rain washed away everything dirty.
Everything that happened yesterday would be washed away.
The day would be new and all mistakes undone and forgiven.
I learned all too quickly some mistakes just can't be forgiven.
Some mistakes are so brutally unforgivable that there are
constant reminders of that one mistake everywhere, everything triggers a memory.
If I could go back in time and erase my mistake, I would.
I would if I could but I can't, it's already done.
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Maui
Pain isn't something that I am used to.
I hate feeling it but like inflicting it upon other's.
Physical pain isn't so bad, it goes away over time.
Emotional pain though, was on a different level.
It was like the pain wouldn't go away, it hurt a lot one minute and the next it's just a dull
pain that just increases again then dull.
It was a never ending cycle of pain.
The hole in my heart seemed to grow with time.
My brain went into momentary shock.
It was like my heart stopped beating, I couldn't feel, see or hear the people around me.
The sound of the blood rushing in my head overthrew everything else.
I never believed they saying: words cut deeper than knife, but now I do.
everything that I used to believe in is now a lie to me.
I don't know what to believe
anymore.