Chapter 15: Near Yet So Far (2)

~ Sophie's POV ~

Mom prepared my favorite viand which is Chicken Adobo. Ivy put some Baguio beans on it and green peas that make it more delicious and tasteful.

"Wow! I missed your Adobo, Mom!" I exclaimed while smiling widely.

Even though I'm blind, I compelled myself to learn how to eat, alone like just a normal high school girl.

"Your father requested it. So, stop thinking that I cooked it for you."

I gasped and stops gnawing. I've been living with them all my life but I can't stop myself to be hurt every time she talks to me that way.

It feels like I'm not her daughter like I've never stayed in her womb in nine months.

Father said, "Why did you stop, Sophie?"

"Umm... I'm not hungry father since Kate treated me into her favorite Japanese restaurant earlier." I told him.

I lied to my own father.

How I wish it has really happened. How I wish that Kate saved me from the bully girl, Yna. But, little did they know, that Kate is using me.

That I'm hurt at this moment, that I need solace and their comforts.

Unfortunately, I got nothing.

Mother said, "Don't leave her side as much as you can get something in return, Sophie. Don't try to argue or even start a fight against her. At least, Kate helped me to lessen my problems because of you."

From that horrifying and unbearable moment, my tears flow down into my cheeks. I can't breathe properly because of the reality that I'm facing right now.

Mom was too harsh when it comes to me, her daughter. She only thinks of herself than me, and it's hurt so much.

"I know that you only see me as a hindrance. A burden to be exact. You know what, Mom? I'm sick of this life! I'm sick of this family! Day by day, you would always put the blame on me for what our lives become at this time! I feel like I'm not your own daughter! I felt like I do not belong to this family! I felt like I am only an intruder in this house!"

"Why are you raising your voice on me? Is that what you get from that expensive school? Huh?!"

I stood up and in my anger, I slammed the table horribly. "Because you are too much! Because my own mother is the person who's dragging me down to the lowest and worst point of my life! You didn't even ask how's my day was! How do I am feeling every single day and night!"

"No one cares for me that's why I became like this, Mom!"

My tears didn't stop falling, and my heart skips a beat. Until I feel her warm palm that touches my wet face.

Mother slapped me so hard and I can't believe she did it to me.

"I tried my best to support your needs, Sophie! I tried to work hard for you to live but look at you now! You're disrespecting your own mother because of your nonsense drama! But if you will ask me too, I am sick and tired of this kind of life Sophie! I am tired!"

Mother told me angrily and hopelessly.

Even though I can't see her mad and flaming face but I can feel it through my heart and soul.

It's not easy to bear this pain. It's never been easy.

"If only you waited for me that day! Our lives will not be as hard as of now! You know Sophie, I regret that you are my child. That I have a sickly and blind daughter, like you!"

Perhaps, there's nothing painful than those words. Even my mother never accepted me as who I am. As what I am.

My whole body was shaking and trembling. I can't describe what I am feeling with exact words.

I don't know where life is taking me. I don't know what to do, either.

"Stop it, Ivy! Stop!"

For the first time, Dad saved and protected from Mom.

I could still hear our loud heartbeats and warm breaths. "Sophie, go back to your room and take a rest. I'll talk to your mom about this."

"Yes, Dad," I said still hugging my wicked self and embracing the solitary within me.

"What are you talking about, Anton?"

Dad whispered something into her ears that make her shut her mouth up. "Are you glad that you nagged and hurt Sophie? She's our own daughter Ivy! D*mn! Are you out of your mind, huh?!"

Dad exclaimed. But, that's what I've heard when I shut the door loudly and carelessly.

I walked into my favorite place in my room and cried silently. If this pain in my heart will stay forever, perhaps there's no other way to escape with it anymore.

I wanted to stop crying to lessen the sadness but my heart keeps on pushing me to do so.

It seems like there's no space for new suffering and sorrow.

"I'm tired of my life!" I uttered and closed my swollen eyes, for good.

*Background Music*

"The tears that shroud my smile

Hide the joy within my heart

And deep somewhere there lies

A promise as old as time

Even though I am all alone now

What wonders will tomorrow bring?

Like the gentle air of the night

You've made all my troubles fly

Somehow I lose you

Among my memories

In the song of a gentle stream

You'll be live forever in me

How I wish Xian is here by my side.