Chapter 31

GABRIELA

When Alex stood up, I thought it was because he was feeling sick or something I said. He had the same face as yesterday when I told him everything that was happening to me with him, or at least I had told him in part. I couldn't help but do it. As soon as he tells me nothing is wrong with him, that it will go away, I keep looking at him, until I realize what's wrong with him. I think there was a misunderstanding about the guy he was asking me about, I think he thought it was someone else, but it's him. 

As my grandmother had said, I had to tell him, we couldn't continue hurting ourselves as we were doing. I didn't like to see him hurt, especially because of me, I would do whatever was in my power to prevent that from happening. What I couldn't help but smile, because he really loved me, it wasn't entirely clear to him until this very moment, but I was also going to clarify it for him. 

"What's funny?" he asked confused and frowning. "You got the thing wrong Alex." I answered still laughing, but I couldn't change. Now I understood the look on his face when I said it "What exactly?" he asked, still frowning. "About the boy I described to you yesterday." 

"What's the matter with him?" he inquired "That boy is you, there is no other that treats me so well and I like being with him other than you." I assured him, because it was true "Marcos fits that definition." he said and I couldn't help but roll my eyes. It may be Marcos fit the definition, but that didn't imply it was him or any other guy I'm talking about. "But with Marcos I don't feel other things like I do with you." 

"What things?" he asked and I moved closer to him "I still love you, Alex. I don't know how, but I still love you more than the first day." He stood there looking at me. I could see his glassy eyes and I really wasn't understanding why he reacted like that, exaggerated for me. 

When I least expected it, he wraps his arms around my hip and kisses me, which I don't hesitate for a second to continue and I end up putting my arms behind his neck. I don't know how much time passes, but I decide it's better to leave it, I didn't want someone who knew me to gossip to someone else or to my parents, it wasn't necessary. 

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to, well I did…" he started, but I stopped him before he could continue apologizing "You don't need to apologize, you don't need to. Besides, I wanted to kiss you, there's no problem with it." 

"Can I ask you a question?" he asked and I nodded "What does this mean exactly? To get an idea and all." He explained, "It means I love you, but that doesn't mean we're going to be dating again right now. I'm not ready." 

"I understand you, and I will respect it. We're still friends." I nodded and we started walking along the shore again and we were silent for a couple of minutes until he asked me a question again. "Are you still angry with Carlota? Because you shouldn't be." 

"Of course, I have to be mad at her. She knows how I feel about you and still wants me to find a partner, it's not easy to get anyone out of their head, much less out of their heart. I don't know what's going through her head." I answered sincerely "Well, I understand her." 

This time I was the one who stopped and stared at him, because what he was saying made no sense. What Carlota was doing went totally against what he wanted to achieve. "What did you just say?" I asked confused even though I'm completely sure of what I heard. 

"What you heard. I understand her." He repeated "Well, explain it to me because I don't understand her." I said "Carlota is your best friend who may feel guilty for not having defended you from what we did to you and since she associates me with that, she will do everything in her power so it doesn't happen to you again. " 

"But I know how to defend myself, they don't have to treat me like a little girl." I assured and he nodded "I know, it may be the guilt is acting on her right now, and it will continue to do so. You should talk to her about it. Maybe that's how you solve something." he responded, shrugging his shoulders. "Do you think that's why she doesn't even want me to get close to you?" 

"I suppose, it was my fault she lost you once, you and Marcos, she's not going to let it happen again." he affirmed and thinking about it that way, it could be, but it would be something I would think about later, now the only thing that mattered to me was spending time with him "Since when are you so good? Before you had your cons you quarreled with her." 

"We had them because we didn't understand each other, but now I understand life better, I understand it." he said as if it weren't a big deal "And what made you understand life better?" I asked curiously "Losing you." He answered quickly "Well, you won't, I won't risk that you stop understanding life as you do now." 

We laughed and held hands, I don't know why, but we did and it felt great. At one point he stopped and stood in front of me, making me stop walking. "Gabriela, I know you must be tired of me telling you, but it's just to make it clear to you." he started and I nodded, because I knew he meant "You don't have to repeat that to me." I assured him, but he denied. 

"Yes, for me it is necessary. I love you Gabriela, more than anything in this world and I hope one day you will be able to forgive me. I swear I'll make you happy, I won't let anything or anyone hurt you, seriously." he insisted and I nodded with a smile on my face "I believe you." I assured him and which brought a big smile to his face. 

Right at that moment I hear someone calling me from afar. I curse on everything when I heard them. I don't know what the hell they were doing here, let alone how they found me if I hadn't told anyone where I had gone, not even my grandmother, who knew I would be with Alex at this moment. 

Alex and I looked at each other, he with a bit of a fright and I annoyed thinking about what the hell they were doing here. I was about to turn around when Alex stops me. "Remember what we talked about." He whispered in my ear "As long as she doesn't say things she shouldn't, everything will be fine." I replied "If you want, I'll go and let the three of you talk." 

"It's not necessary, really. You better stay, you'll be able to stop me in case I rush at her." I said, even though it was unlikely I would do it "As you wish then my queen." 

I turned to look in their direction and I see them looking at me surprised, I don't know exactly why, but I imagine it's because Alex is here, with me, but from now on they were going to have to get used to it. It may be we weren't a couple yet, but we're friends and I was going to care little if they thought and said it.