I MISS YOU

It's really painful when you have no one whom you can demand, to whom you can ask for anything without any hesitation, whom you can share all your feelings, the one who gv you shoulder to lean on whenever you want, one who fullfill all your desires, the one who never complain about anything, and never told you that he had done this for you. He will do everything for you without letting you know. And will be there for you all the time when you need him ❤️

You're the world of happiness to him. If you hurt him, he still loves you without any expectations, without anything in return and no one can love you the way he do. Without him everything is meaningless but you have to live your life anyhow, life must goes on, either somebody's is living in it or not.

So here I am talking about Father, the most precious thing in the world. It's really hard to live without him.

You never thought this would happen to you it's something that happens in movies, a little girl loses her father.

You are very aware of all the stories that begin this way now, I know. You wonder where the messy part of the story is. When her father is gone forever. The part where she have to smile and hug and talk to people without letting them know that she is broken and her entire world is in pieces. The part when she left in a darkness and the need to carry on some form of normalcy. She is sad and then happy, she wondered is she cried too much or too little, she let herself think and feel about some of the memories. If she have to say goodbye, she replay it over and over. And if she didn't she feel the aches. She try to go on living because she is still here. There's purpose, there has to be, because to the outside world, you have to look functioning. But really you feel as though you are wandering around with a giant piece missing.

As the days turn to weeks and those turn to months, you wonder if you're beginning to forget this, that was your whole world, your confidant and your friend. What if you forget what It feels like to hold his hand or to be held in a tight hug? What if someday you can't remember what his voice sounded like when he prayed or greeted you when you came from school?

Your life will never be the same but the people who love you will continue to look at you with that look.

You'll wonder if God really is good. He is.

You'll demand to know if His way really is best. It is

You'll doubt that His timing is perfect. It is.

You'll question that there is purpose to this pain. There is.

If you trusted your father just think how much more reliable your God is.

If you were loved by your father, just hold on to how much more your God loves you.

Trust him and never lose faith in god by for setbacks coming upon you that doesn't mean he leaves you.

To all who lost their parents, you have god, he will protect you. Keep your eyes fixed on him and let the rest fall away.

LETTER TO FATHER

I know I am not the only girl who is hurting over losing her father. Sometimes it just doesn't seem fair or right that you're gone. I don't understand god ways, but I do believe they are higher than mine. I don't understand his timing, but I believe it is perfect. It is difficult to see the good, but I believe that he do good.

Today I really really really missed you I don't know why but I feel so emotional 😅 I really need you this time, without you it's really hard to go ahead, I know it's been years since you are gone I always missed you but this time I need you so bad, I wanted to be with you, I want you to tell me the stories which you used to tell me. I want u to tell the world that I am still that little flower. I want you to take my decisions, I want you to feel my pain, after all I want you to live with me for a moment I have lots and lots of things to say no body knows how I miss you. I often speak about you but I always loved you the most. I still have that teddy which you gave me on my last birthday with you. I miss you 🥺

||| HEARTACHE IN THIS WORLD ARE MANY BUT MINE IS WORSE THAN ANY |||

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