Chapter 11 I want to live for the better

2-march-2015

Ranran weakly took out a bottle of sleeping pill hidden in her drawer and swallowed them whole.

It was hard to swallow but she still swallowed it , more than half of it spill out from her mouth and fall on the floor with the sound of glass of sleeping pill falling on the floor.

Ranran was unstable and also weakly fell on the floor of glass shards and lost conscious after hitting her head hard on the floor. The glass shards cuts her unconscious body. Blooding start to flow and spread on the floor.

Sam who entered the room screamed in fright and shock fall to her knee. Chase quickly came and carried Ranran.

"Hurry! Call a ambulance!" Chase shouted out loud.

...

In the moment when Ranran fall unconscious she saw many memories repeated in her mind. She saw herself in these memories

The time when she was was three. She and her brother fall off the peach tree because of her whimsical wishes causing her brother to bleed badly and hurt his arm.

Back then she was so scared and couldn't help and cry. She was afraid that if her brother climbed higher then how much more injuries would he suffer. Thinking about it she felt her hurt in extreme pain and regret.

From then she always followed him. No matter how much annoyed he was ,she always followed him. Because she wanted to protect him from making compromises for her.

She always knew this brother who pretended annoyed and fierce always cared for her. Even when he didn't had much money to buy himself food he give away his only money to her so she won't be hungry with nasty face.

Her brother was awkward and didn't know how to express himself so choose to show his care through practical manner.

Like when in third she was bullied and Sam was beaten back in order to avenge her but got defeated instead. At that time even through he didn't say, brother personally went to block those boys on the alley and beat them to hospital . Later he even had to take responsibility for sake of helping her.

I am sorry for fighting with you , brother.

Sorry for saying I never want to see you again.

She is really too sorry for him and Sam.

Sam...

Back when on her first day of school when the entire class turned against her and accused her in harsh words the only person who helped her and believed was always her.

Even when she says domineering president quotes to her and threaten her but it has always has been for her own good.

The person who actually stayed with her in the end was always her.

How did they fall to point of ignoring and blaming each other?

Since when ?

Oh...

It all started when she first realized her love for Sarban.

She blindly pursue that one person who will never look back at her and ignored those who stayed and guarded her do dearly.

Ran Quzi you are the most foolish.

Even if you can't get your beloved's love how can you bear to harm your dear ones again.

If only...

If only she can wake up and live again she will never hurt those people who have always silently guarded her to become so carefree and stupid.

Now she wants to become a better and more sensible person for them.

Just one more chance....

...Please...

I want to live.