Antimatter

The sun is around 4.5 billion years old

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The night of  20th june, 2015 I told her I hated her.

The Anger had blinded my eyes, blocking it from her teary gaze. Jealousy had  blinded my ears and  stopped me from hearing her truthful words and hatred had  stuffed my mouth, filling it with venomous words that I did not mean. I didn't meant any of it.

She died thinking I hated her.

Aster.

She was always  better than me. Our teachers knew that, her friends, my friends, even our parents knew that.

I knew that.

But it never bothered me until I got a real taste of difference. It's raging whip had hit me with all it's strength it turned me into a monster.

A  fucking monster who might as well have Slit the throat of  her sister.

Aster simmers was the sun and  It was like the name was created for her. Only her. Everyone revolved around her like the planets. She was sweet, honest, beautiful and so smart. She was everything the world ever needed .

And I took her away. Put off her light, quenched it, destroyed it.

I remember her eyes then. Looking at me with such betrayal, it branded through my skin so hot I could've broken down right there, but I held on, continuing with the verbal pain.  Her hurt, anguish and pain ruined me and I was the cause of this, no one else

But me, Daphne, her fucking sister, whose last words to her were,

"I hate you" I screamed as tears ran down my face. "I fucking  hate you! Just get out okay? Get out!!"

I'd ignored the look on her face as I slammed right passed her. Ignoring the heart wrenching sob that came from her.

Aster, who meant the whole world to me, left and took my stars with her.

Aster who I killed.