Breaking

Why do you keep coming?

Not when I'm in this state,

When my head keeps hurting,

My brain keeps screaming.

When my mind keeps searching,

For the right thoughts,

Memories that can keep me alive,

At this moment,

All that comes to mind,

Is how to die.

Asking and seeking,

For a painless and short way,

To end all this mess,

It's hard,

To live with all of this stress.

Why can't you just leave me?

I'm not normal,

Yet I didn't choose to be me,

I never asked for it.

The manner I was treated,

Remarks I got

The answers I heard.

Stigmas I felt.

I had to live by pills,

Suppressing my anomaly triggers,

Forgetting the long term effects,

A slow poison....

With no option, I'm left wanting.

I'll keep taking,

If it doesn't break me,

Then it will make me.