Chapter 64

**This chapter has another song that is integral to it. It is categorically not a BTS song or a solo song of any of theirs. It is by the Goo Goo Dolls and is called Iris. For the purpose of the story though the words fit and it's a lovely song. Therefore I have borrowed it, if you listen to it try to imagine Jimin singing it**

Later on that day after managing to eat a little soup and a bread roll Lori arrives. She looks great. Her hair is longer and really shiny and she looks like she has put on a little weight on her face. She comes and cuddles me and kisses my cheek. "Fucking hell did you have me scared" she says. I mouth that I am sorry and re adjust myself so I am more comfortable and facing her sitting in the chair next to me. My Mum and Dad have left for the day and won't be back until tomorrow.

"So Mum and Dad tell me you are packing up your stuff, you are still going then?" I ask. "Yeah, I handed in my notice at work and left last week. They gave me a Korean phrase book and a watch as a leaving present. They said I should keep it set on English time so I always know when I can call the office for a chat. Ain't that sweet" she says shaking her head and laughing. "I have arranged for someone to rent my flat at least for a while as I don't want to sell it just yet, and most of my furniture is being put in storage. Some of my clothes and stuff have already been shipped".

"Wow, exciting" I say with an attempted joviality which fails miserably. She stands up and comes over to me. "I know you are sad he isn't here, but trust me the 3 of them didn't want to leave, Namjoon especially. He absolutely sobbed saying goodbye to you. Before they left he was here as much as he could be, he took fabulous care of you. Since they have been home he has been ringing and FaceTiming a lot, in fact he will be ringing in a little while. Also, when they were on the flight back to Korea they wrote another song for the album. It's dedicated to you. Namjoon wrote the lyrics and Jimin is singing. I have it if you want to listen?" She says getting her phone ready to play it.

I look at her, emotion already filling my eyes with water. How can I say no to listening to a song dedicated to me, written by the most beautiful man on the planet as well as sung by the sweetest friend. "Yes" I say.

**play song**

And I'd give up forever to touch you

'Cause I know that you feel me somehow

You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be

And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment

And all I can breathe is your life

And sooner or later, it's over

I just don't wanna miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me

'Cause I don't think that they'd understand

When everything's made to be broken

I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming

Or the moment of truth in your lies

When everything feels like the movies

Yeah, you bleed just to know, you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me

'Cause I don't think that they'd understand

When everything's made to be broken

I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me

'Cause I don't think that they'd understand

When everything's made to be broken

I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me

'Cause I don't think that they'd understand

When everything's made to be broken

I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am

I have tears rolling down my cheeks, that beautiful voice and those lovely words. It's a fantastic song. "It's called A.I.T" Lori says. "They wanted it to be that we knew who it was about but anyone on the outside wouldn't know. I think it's quite clever" she gushes. I know right then that it was Yoongi's idea. "My initials, that's very clever of them. I suppose others will try and interpret those to mean something else. There will be conspiracy theories everywhere" I chuckle.

"There is a couple of other things I need to tell you too. You know the cover they were so secretive about? Well I have that too. Ready?" She says and let's out a little giggle. Oh Jesus, what is this going to be?

The intro music for waterfalls by TLC plays. I look at her in shock and she says "it gets better". When the verse starts I can hear Jimin singing but very subtly in the background is Lori's voice. "Shit!" I say loudly. She laughs. As the song gets to the rap, I hear Namjoon but again very subtly in the background I hear me! "Fuck!" I shout. She laughs and says "Yoongi recorded us on his phone and did some augmenting to get us to fit with them so we are on the track!"

"That's amazing" I say in a little shock. It sounds great. I think it might be a hit. "What's the other thing you want to tell me?" I ask, not sure I can take anymore shocks to my system.

"I'm pregnant".