Chapter 50

I managed a little sleep, but it was restless. I still don't know quite what i'm going to do, but I know I have to be brave and go home eventually. Yoongi stirs next to me and I decide to turn my phone back on. 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7 text messages come through.

Lori:

-Baby, it's fine. I know you and I know you think this is best, so it's best for me, but Yoongi is coming to find you. I'm going to try and help the boys. See you tomorrow. I love you-

Jimin:

-Aimee I am so sorry. Where have you gone?-

-Please tell me you are ok?-

-I hope we can sort this.-

Namjoon:

-I am really worried about you. Where have you gone. Please let me come and find you so I can explain myself.-

-Aimee, I love you. I didn't want to say this to you over text but I really do. You have captured my heart.-

-I hope Yoongi finds you and you are safe. I want a chance to fix this. I miss you so much already I ache.-

Wow, what do you say to that. Namjoon says he loves me. There is a huge difference in the sentiment in their messages, but Namjoon is a wordsmith and could put down his feelings more eloquently, or like Yoongi said, once Jimin knew his Mum didn't approve, did he shut down and just start enjoying what he could whilst he could and resigned himself to the fact it would end. He did say he wanted me to be his girlfriend for now and we could worry about it all later. Perhaps out of the both of them there is more of a deep connection between me and Namjoon, and what I had with Jimin was more of a fan girl crush?

"Morning" Yoongi says stretching his arms over his head. "How are you doing?" he asks me. "Ok I suppose. I'm really tired, didn't sleep well at all. I've just turned on my phone and Namjoon says he loves me so there's that" I let out a stifled laugh.

"He does love you, you have been all he has been talking about, you are all he scribbles about in his notebook, he definitely does". Yoongi is firm in his opinion and looks at me intently trying to portray just how strongly he believes his own words.

"Do you think Jimin does?" I ask him. He remains quiet for a minute and then replies "no, I don't think he does. I think he mistook lust for love in his naivety and any chance of love progressing disappeared as quickly as his Mums disapproval appeared. I don't think he has realised that fully, and I don't want you to think that in anyway is a reflection on you. It's a weird Korean honour and tradition thing". He looks softly at me, seeing that those words have hurt. He takes my hand in his and pulls me into him for a cuddle knowing it is what I need right now. I can't help but sob.

There is a tap at the door and then it opens. Sylvia is standing there with a tray of food as promised and the elusive Jeff is behind her with another tray laden with drinks. They come in and pop the trays down and she looks at me with her kind eyes. "Morning lovey, try and eat something, you will feel better" she ushers her Husband out of the room as Yoongi shouts out thanks to her. Food would be good.

I tuck in to a bowl of fruit and a glass of orange juice and Yoongi has some coffee and toast. I do feel better. I make my way into the bathroom and freshen up. I manage to look half decent except for having to put that stupid outfit back on. I struggle with the corset again and Yoongi helps me tie it up. He has a little freshen up too and we head downstairs.

Sylvia settles the bill with Yoongi, again my money is no good as she tells us there is a taxi on its way. I thank her for her hospitality and kindness and she pats my hand. "Come and visit us again soon" she says as we walk out of the door to wait for our ride.