Step siblings

I look at myself at the mirror on my table at the office. I wipe the tears in the corner of my eyes and at my cheeks.

Dang I look like a mess with my hair everywhere and my red puffy eyes.

This is ridiculous! It's been a long time since I cried but look at me, crying at a jerk, and that jerk could be my brother.

My step brother! How disgusting is that? We kissed for fucksake!

Realizing that, I can't help but to get up from my seat and rush towards the bathroom inside my office.

I brushed my teeth while feeling disgusted at myself.

Is it bad if I feel guilty that I feel bad?

Is it bad if I don't feel disgusted at the kissed at all? Instead I'm disgusted at myself for feeling good at it.

I end up taking a shower after brushing my teeth. I stayed there like for one hour and I feel like I catch a cold.