it's been a long journey

I promised my self that I will accept my fate but there were never ending misfortunes waiting for me.

I liked somebody when I grew up and graduated then I met him all alone with my heart filled with mixed feelings about him but I never thought that he will be very important to me in future .

I felt that he is so perfect that I can't handle my feelings I dated him two or three times but never touched him he was so cool and I was hesitant to be with a man in a single room , because I was a very shy girl I never even spoke to any man but he was the only one whom I liked so much with my all feelings in my heart I proposed him once in his car while he was driving I run my fingers into his shiny black hair and thinking of him and asking him to marry me but he stopped the car and he then told me that he can't marry me in five to six years

I was shocked

I opened car lock

and move out from his car

and then leave him alone

I never looked back to him

as I thought he was not for me

he judged me

but I left him

I left him on that road

I was shaking with sadness

and tears were running through my eyes

I knew that was my last meeting with him

I can't stop loving and remembering him till now

I got arranged married with some one else I don't know

he was forced on me, my parents want me to be married with that man.

I refused alot but mother and father were keeping their promises and neglected my feelings I protest tell my mom that I will not marry him but she refused to take me serious she pressurised me to marry him