Poetry: I Was

I was pregnant at 14

Her name was Amour

Her initials A.O.T

She would kick at happiness

When her father came to me at dawn

Stay slient when he left me

Alone.

She would move around

When I was distressed

Want to reveal herself

When I was nauseas

But I love her

The same way I loved him

She grew in me

Blossomed beautifully

The doctor saying she would

Be perfect without any issues

But than, there was something else

Another child within

Call him Odio

He stayed safe behind

My beloved.

My lover began to look at me strange

How would I ever change

The expressions on his face

It wouldn't even age

Wasn't even a stage

But I still stayed

My lover began to treat me horribly.

Bumping my shoulder

Like a stranger

Entering 18

Was like entering hell's

Door

Bent out of shape

I kept hitting my chest

Begging for some air

Something to revive

My still cold heart

My children felt

Iike forgiveness.

My mind lost in insanity

But I still deserved love

And I would wait upon him

I would love him

I would take care of his seed

Within me

And yes, he would be proud

Until he stopped caring

Until he stopped loving me

Looked me in the eyes

And said I'm crazy

It will never be me.

They were never his

The drop of my tears

Felt like a fountain of blood

That fell down like calvary

When he pushed me

Down the stairs

Amour & Odio

Love & Hatred

In a constant

Fight in me to

See who would be the first

To live

The first to be born

Or the first to inherit

Survival?

He rejected me

He rejected what was in me

Don't get me started

On how he betrayed me

So he pushed me

I lost my children

I lost my love,

My hatred

I only had emptiness, I was blind

But I knew

I only had nothing

And now that I could see

I was numb