DESPERATION

NOAH'S POV

(PRESENT)

That was the day when I put my plan into action and amidst all of this I didn't realize that she was looking for someone who can hear her, understand her, and treasure her and she saw that in me. In the end, it was me who ruined everything.

I am the reason she lost our child; I am the reason she is in this condition.

A strong urge to go there and hug her enveloped me. I wanted to ask for her forgiveness and did not let go until she did.

I do not know if she'll even give me another chance but I am sure that I am going to bring her back.

I stepped forward and she froze at her place when she saw me.

I didn't want to hide anymore, I want to take the risk and for once bring her back from that loop she has been living in.

She looked at me with innocent eyes ridden with shock and something else.

Does she recognize me? Does she know who I am?

I cautiously took another step towards her and then slowly erased the remaining distance between us.

I wanted to touch her but didn't want to overwhelm her as well.

She started trembling and a lot of emotions swirled in her beautiful eyes.

"H-hi," I said in a small voice, not even sure if she heard me.

"Y-you…" she stuttered and suddenly fainted but I saved her from falling and getting hurt.

Oh God!

What happened to her?

Why did she faint?

I lifted her in my arms, bridal style and rushed towards her room with her nurses following me.

I just wanted her to remember me, I was getting frustrated that she doesn't remember the time that we spent together.

All the beautiful moments we spent together, our kisses, those innocents touched, her side glances, our playful moments.

I accept that I broke her heart but those moments between us were real.

I put her down on the bed and sat beside her while the nurses around me checked her condition. I only focused on her while everyone around me rushed to check her sugar levels, her blood pressure and everything else.

After some time Dr. Shirley also rushed inside to check her vitals.

"She is fine Mr. Kaine, just in shock. She will be fine when she wakes up." Dr. Shirley answered without me asking anything.

She obviously knew that I was waiting for an update about her condition.

"Will she remember me when she wakes up?" I asked.

I didn't want her to forget me this time, I just want her to get better and we can make new memories if the past is too painful.

"We are not sure, her brain is content in the loop she is living in. She is happy there." The doctor answered and I turned my face away from her to look at the Doctor's face.

"What can I do for her speedy recovery?" I questioned.

"Um…well you cannot give her a shock like this by appearing in front of her without warning, we need to introduce her to new faces but slowly. Her brain needs to accept the fact that her past and her present are both different. If she continues to see new faces she'll slowly start to get in touch with her present. It is a slow process since she is living like this for the last few years." The doctor explained and I saw Sierra standing beside the doctor silently observing me.

"Why can't I meet her or see her? Would you consider me as one of those new faces she needs to get associated with?" I questioned further.

The need to be near her, touch her, and listen to her was slowly consuming me.

I was somehow existing when I thought she was dead and will never come back but now by some miracle, she is with me here, so I don't want to leave her out of my sight, I don't want to miss out on anything. Hell, I am even ready to start working from home just to be near her.

"We can only do that when we know that she is making progress, the good news is that she met three new people yesterday and was perfectly fine and did not get triggered so that's a good sign. Moreover, she didn't talk much about her parents or demanded anything so that's another sign that her treatment is going in the correct direction."

I nodded when the doctor explained and hope flared inside me.

"Thank you, that's all I needed to know. So when can I see her? I mean when will you introduce me to her?" I questioned.

"Mr. Kaine there's something you need to know. She has a tremendous fear of the opposite sex in her heart. This fear is ingrained in her deeply which happens due to long-term exposure to torture by them. So, it will take some time but you never know….she is already showing improvement so maybe you'll get a chance to meet her soon. As I said before, the brain is a difficult organ and works in mysterious ways." She answered all my questions patiently only I was getting impatient.

I nodded and walked outside the room reluctantly.

"There's one last thing I want to ask you and it's been bothering me," I said and Dr. Shirley stopped to look at me.

"What is it?"

"When Aurora's brother tried to meet her she got triggered right?" Dr. Shirley nodded and looked at me with confusion.

"Why? I mean he is her elder brother. She should remember him."

"Aurora only remembers the little version of her brother, not the present one and when he came in front of her she got triggered because her brain was once again not ready to accept the reality."

"So she also won't remember me when she wakes up?" I asked, already dreading the answer.

"Yes, she won't."

I didn't want to hear anything else so I thanked her and walked away.

For now, it would be best to keep my memories with me. I can't risk losing her again.