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ALEX'S POV
Maddie and I were chilling in my room while Mom and Dallas talked about dull stuff most likely.
"Maddie! What the heck are you doing?!" I asked when she grabbed my phone.
"I'm prank calling Logan. She doesn't have your number so it's a PERFECT opportunity.. after I use the bathroom!" She laughed as she ran into the bathroom. The doorbell rang and I went to go see who was at the door but Mom answered before me.
"What are you doing here?" Mom's voice scowled.
"I left some of my clothes here. May I come in and grab them?" I heard a familiar voice ask. It was Max, who is Mom's ex.
"Sure. Go ahead. Just DON'T do anything!"
"Thank you." He replied. He came up the stairs and smirked when he saw me. Max proceeded to go into Mom's room and grab his clothes, when he came out, he stopped by my bedroom door. "This won't be the last time you see me." He whispered sexually in my ear. I stiffened as he left.
"Alex? Are you okay?" Maddie asked as she came out of the bathroom.
"I.. I.." I stuttered as I choked up. The knots in my stomach tightened, my breathing became uneven, my whole body was shaking as I gasped for air.
"Alex? What's happening?" Maddie asked as she rushed over to me.
"I.. I c-can't b-breathe!" I tried to let out the best I could. Maddie pulled me close to her, trying to calm me down. Demi or Dallas were always the ones who knew how to help me when something like this happens.
"DEMS!" Maddie yelled, her voice frantic and laced with fear. Only a couple seconds later Mom rushed into the room, slightly out of breath. Her eyes widened as she saw the state I was in and quickly came to me.
"I-I can't b-breathe, Mom! I-It hurts!" I choked out. I was sweating, my hands were clammy, and my heart was pounding.
"Sit down, Alex." Mom's calming voice instructed as she helped me over to my bed. "Maddie, can you get me some water?" She asked Maddie as she comfortingly rubbed my back. Moments later Maddie came back with a water bottle.
"Here you go." Maddie said as she handed Mom the water.
"Match my breathing, baby girl." Mom spoke as she pulled me in a hug as I let my head rest against her chest. "In and out.. in and out." She cooed. I followed along with her breathing and listened to her heartbeat. We finally managed to get my breathing back to normal.
"Are you okay? What happened, baby?" Mom asked with worry lacing her voice. I took a big sip of water before I spoke.
"M-M-Max.." I spoke, my voice a little raspy.
"Did he do something?" Dallas chimed in, entering my room.
"He said something.." I whispered quietly.
"What did he say?" Maddie asked.
"H-He said it wouldn't be the last time I saw h-him.." I spoke a little above a whisper this time.
Dallas then said something to Mom, but I zoned out when the demons started pestering me.
'You idiot. He's going to get in trouble because of you.'
'Isn't that a good thing?'
'No! He was giving you what you deserved. Remember?'
'You're right..'
'We're always right.'
"Baby girl! Alex!" Mom's voice exclaimed. When I came back to reality I noticed I was scratching at my cuts. Fuck. I didn't say anything as I looked her in the eyes.
DEMI'S POV
I noticed Alex was zoning out when I was talking with Dallas about the Max situation. We're most likely going to get a restraining order against him. When I looked back at Alex, she was scratching at the cuts on her arms.
"Baby girl! Alex!" I exclaimed as I knelt down in front of her. She slowly looked up and looked me in the eyes. Her eyes were saying everything that she wasn't. She's hurting, in pain, sad, and she didn't want to admit it or talk about any of it. How can I get her to open up and let her know that she has the right to feel any emotion and be able to express it and talk about it. I brought her into the bathroom so I could clean her arms.
"I'm sorry.." She finally spoke after a bit as I was cleaning her cuts. A few stray tears rolled down her cheeks.
"What's going on in your mind right now?" I asked her as I wiped away some of her tears with the pad of my thumb.
"I.. I don't know.." She replied as she shrugged her shoulders. "I'm tired, Mommy. Can we talk more about it tomorrow?"
"We can sleep, baby girl." I looked at the time and it was ten o'clock at night. "We can also talk more about it tomorrow."
"W-What about Dallas and Maddie?" She asked quietly.
"They have to get going soon anyways. They'll understand." I replied. I was about to walk out of the bathroom when Alex grabbed ahold of my hand. I turned around and she then held her arms out, wanting to be carried.
"Can I sleep with you tonight?" She asked, her eyes had a pleading look.
"Of course, you can." I smiled. I walked out of the bathroom with her in my arms. "We appreciate you guys coming over." I spoke to Dallas and Maddie. "Alex and I are going to head to bed. This little girl is tired." I cooed like a mom would with her infant. We said our goodbyes and hugged each other before they left.
"S-Sing to me?" I heard Alex's quiet voice speak as I laid down next to her in bed.
"Of course, baby." I answered. She proceeded to cuddle next to me.
Feeling like a drop in the ocean
But don't nobody notice
Maybe it's all just in your head
Feeling like you're trapped in your own skin
And now your body's frozen
Broken down, you've got nothing left
When you're high on emotion
And you're losing your focus
And you feel too exhausted to pray
Don't get lost in the moment
Or give up when you're closest
All you need is somebody to say
It's okay not to be okay
It's okay not to be okay
When you're down and you feel ashamed
It's okay not to be okay
Feeling like you're lost in illusion
And lately you're secluded
Thinking you'll never get your chance
Feeling like you've got no solution
It's only 'cause you're human
No control, it's out of your hands
When you're high on emotion
And you're losing your focus
And you feel too exhausted to pray
Don't get lost in the moment
Or give up when you're closest
All you need is somebody to say
It's okay not to be okay
It's okay not to be okay
When you're down and you feel ashamed
It's okay not to be okay
When you're high on emotion
And you're losing your focus
And you feel too exhausted to pray
Don't get lost in the moment
Or give up when you're closest
All you need is somebody to say
It's okay not to be okay (ohh)
It's okay not to be okay (no, no, no)
When you're down and you feel ashamed
(When you feel ashamed)
It's okay not to be okay (no, no)
It's okay not to be okay
When I finished singing, I looked over and saw she was asleep.
"I love you, baby girl." I whispered and kissed her forehead before I also fell asleep.