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DEMI'S POV

- FLASHBACK -

"She's losing oxygen! We need to put her on some oxygen!" A paramedic shouted as we were rushing to the hospital. They put an oxygen mask on her. Luckily they managed to get her pulse to a decent rate.

"My poor, baby girl.." I choked out as I held her hand. "You'll make it.. you're a strong girl.."

- FLASHBACK OVER - 

It's been three hours and Alex was still unconscious. I was pacing back and forth, wondering what I could've done differently. I heard a knock after being left in my own thoughts for a while.

"You and Alex have visitors." The nurse said. I looked up and saw my parents, Dallas, and Maddie.

"How is she?" My Mom asked as she engulfed me in a hug.

"T-They never updated me. I.. I'm scared.. I can't lose my baby girl.." I whispered as I was crying.

"How are you? Have you been taking care of yourself? Have you relapsed?" She asked worriedly.

"M-Mom.. I'm fine.. I'll let you know if I feel like relapsing.." I replied. I looked over and saw Maddie crying. "She's going to be okay.. she's a strong girl." I spoke to Maddie as I hugged her. "She's my little warrior."

"I.. I don't want to lose her, D-Dems.." She replied softly.

I sat down on a chair next to Alex's bed. I held her hand in mine and whispered things to her, hoping she could hear me. I told her how perfect and wonderful she is and that none of us want her gone.

"Demi, what's this?" Dallas asked, holding up two pieces of paper and Alex's phone.

"She left those in her room.. can you read them out loud?" I asked looking up at her. She read the letters out loud and we were all crying at the end of them, and we didn't even listen to the song she wanted us to listen to yet. I pressed play on the song she had on her phone, which she was singing.

Help, I have done it again

I have been here many times before

Hurt myself again today

And, the worst part is there's no-one else to blame

Be my friend, hold me

Wrap me up, enfold me

I am small and needy

Warm me up and breathe me

Ouch I have lost myself again

Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found

Yeah I think that I might break

Lost myself again and I feel unsafe

Be my friend, hold me

Wrap me up, enfold me

I am small and needy

Warm me up and breathe me

Be my friend, hold me

Wrap me up, enfold me

I am small and needy

Warm me up and breathe me

"My poor baby.." I whispered to myself.

"Dems, you might want to look at this." I looked over at Dallas on the opposite side of the bed. I went over to her and Dallas lifted up her gown to show me her thighs, revealing a lot of fresh cuts. "These look fresh.." Dallas had tears in her eyes.

"I.. I thought she was getting better.." I cried out before falling on the floor. I was uncontrollably sobbing as I felt Eddie's arms wrap around me and pull me up. "My baby girl isn't happy.." I mumbled into his chest. "W-What if they force me to send her to rehab? S-She can't survive rehab! She needs me by her side!" I exclaimed.

"No one will make you force her.. you're her parent, so you ultimately get to make the decision." Mom calmly explained.

"I think she's waking up!" I heard Maddie shout. I looked over and Alex's eyes were opened. She looked scared and confused. I rushed over to her side and held her hand.

"Baby, can you hear me?" I asked as tears were streaming down my face. She violently started shaking and her eyes rolled in the back of her head. "Alex?! GET A DOCTOR!" I screamed at my family. Next I know is that I'm being dragged out of the room.

"Miss, you have to stay out here!" A nurse exclaimed.

"I need to be there for my baby!" I cried out as Eddie was holding onto me.

"She's in good hands. They're trying to figure out what caused the seizure she had." Nurse Dani (I learned her name) explained to me.

"S-Seizure?" I asked in shock. "M-My baby girl had a seizure?" I choked out. "W-Was it from her overdose?"

"That's a likely cause. Does she ever get anxiety attacks?" Nurse Dani asked.

"S-She does. Fairly often.." I responded.

"It's a high possibility that she had a seizure because of her anxiety. We managed to almost drain all the medicine she overdosed on out of her system. At least enough where it shouldn't affect her."

"Alex is awake and almost functioning properly." Doctor Greg said as he came out of her room.

"Can we see her?" I asked hopeful.

"You guys can see her." He responded. "She's one strong girl." He added.

"Hey, baby girl. How are you feeling?" I asked sitting next to her bed. I grabbed her hand and held onto it.

"T-Tired.." She spoke quietly. "I.. I'm sorry.. my d-demons wouldn't shut u-up.." She choked out as she started crying.

"Alex, it's okay." I said. "Look at me, baby." I commanded as she tried looking away. "We're going to get you the help you need. We'll see your therapist more often, turn off comments on your social media, whatever helps you get better, baby girl. We'll get through this together." I whispered and kissed her forehead.

"W-When c-can I l-leave? I... I don't like it h-here, m-mommy!" She cried out and tried to reach out to me. I carefully got into the bed with her, careful not to mess up some of the tubing and wires, and I held her in my embrace.

"Calm down, baby. I'm sure you'll be out of here in no time. You're my little warrior." I replied.

"S-Sing to me?" She asked quietly.

"Of course I will, baby girl." I said. I cleared my throat and started singing.

This is a story that I have never told

I gotta get this off my chest to let it go

I need to take back the light inside you stole

You're a criminal

And you steal like you're a pro

All the pain and the truth

I wear like a battle wound

So ashamed, so confused

I was broken and bruised

Now I'm a warrior

Now I've got thicker skin

I'm a warrior

I'm stronger than I've ever been

And my armor, is made of steel, you can't get in

I'm a warrior

And you can never hurt me again

Out of the ashes, I'm burning like a fire

You can save your apologies, you're nothing but a liar

I've got shame, I've got scars

That I will never show

I'm a survivor

In more ways than you know

'Cause all the pain and the truth

I wear like a battle wound

So ashamed, so confused

I'm not broken or bruised

'Cause now I'm a warrior

Now I've got thicker skin

I'm a warrior

I'm stronger than I've ever been

And my armor, is made of steel, you can't get in

I'm a warrior

And you can never hurt me

There's a part of me I can't get back

A little girl grew up too fast

All it took was once, I'll never be the same

Now I'm taking back my life today

Nothing left that you can say

'Cause you were never gonna take the blame anyway

Alex joined in quietly for the last part of the song.

Now I'm a warrior

I've got thicker skin

I'm a warrior

I'm stronger than I've ever been

And my armor, is made of steel, you can't get in

I'm a warrior

And you can never hurt me again

No oh yeah yeah

You can never hurt me again

"I love you, baby girl."

"I love you too.." She said before curling up against me. I sighed to myself. I don't want to think about what would've happened if I lost her.