Chapter 12

During classes, I was just not myself and even the teachers had began noticing it,and some went as far as asking me what the problem was but how could I just tell anyone that the boy sitting behind me was messing me up this bad? No matter how hard I tried to concentrate, I just couldn't so when break time finally came, I was relieved. I went to the cafeteria to get something to drink to cool off my head but that was a very unwise decision and I regretted it when I got there. Close to the vending machine, I found Rowlyne kissing this girl from the next class and immediately I froze....fuck!! He must have heard my loud gasp because when he saw me he too froze and our eyes locked for a very long time. I felt my heart beat go faster as sharp pain pierced through it and all I wanted was to run away from that place,but again why would I run away? So I courageously walked to the vending machine,got my drink and left without looking back even though I wanted to. I went back to class waiting for the next lesson to start but I found myself calling my ride home. When I got home I was in no mood for a chat so I went straight to my room and locked the door. I sat down on the floor and stared at the blank grey wall before me,and I asked myself multiple questions.....what was going on???

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Rowlyene's POV

I watched how Moulyne could not concentrate in class and it gave me pleasure,simply because I was the main reason behind his confused state but again,why did it give me so much joy? I too could not concentrate in class but the teachers didn't bother asking because I've never concentrated,it was nothing new to them. I felt like calling his name multiple times and at one point I ended up whispering it,and he even turned to look at me,he must have heard me. When it was break time, I knew I needed an escape from this nagging feeling so I called Tiffany to the cafeteria for some small romance and I did that because I knew Moulyne could never come there,he simply stayed back in class during break hours so seeing him there caught me offgaurd and I regretted calling Tiffany over. The hurt was clearly visible in his eyes and I don't know why but I suddenly felt guilty. When I went back to class, I didn't find him and I knew I had fucked up big time. I was very miserable and unfortunately I couldn't skip class or else I'd be risking suspension, I just had to bear till the end. When classes finally ended, I rushed to the park where we met last time in hopes I'd find him and have a talk with him or to just see if he's fine but I didn't find him. I got home to and after a shower I began working on my task but I found myself staring at the computer, thinking inappropriate thoughts about a certain someone and I constantly had to bring myself back to reality with a slap on my cheek but finally in the end, I gave up and fell asleep on my desk. When it was midnight, I left my apartment to meet Mr. Austin,whose project I was working on.