Irony
It was ironic that Ryu realized this about himself. He had always seen himself as a hypocrite. A man who wanted for everything and wouldn't be satisfied unless he could have it all.
He didn't care about the hopes and dreams of Wobbling Fairy. Since she had chosen to lay with him, she would be forever bound to him or suffer his wrath.
He didn't care about who he killed, who their families were, who was waiting for them to come home… but should anyone think to do the same with his family, they would surely also face his wrath.
He had so many contradictory views, all of which could be summarized in a single word.
Hypocrisy.
Never did he think that at the height of his life, when he faced off against the dream he had chased after the longest, that he had wanted for the most, that he would actually have such thoughts about it…
That he was actually okay with losing… just this one…