Chapter 2- Life or Death

After a few years has passed by, I was still abused and tortured by those instructors. One of the managers or owner of the whole thing was my own bloody father. Yamada Higa.

Each time, I was left unconscious or near death. I began to ponder everytime they enter the room, wondering when will it all end.

And then, after a while, they came back again. I anticipated that they will torture me off again even though I felt like every body part of me was breaking already.

To my shock, they were checking up on me for the first time. I felt sort of relieved even though I was tortured by them. They still had care for my life.

I saw it. Their dissatisfied face. I began to cower back in an act of fear. I was genuinely feared for my life, since I know anything that happens right now can result in my death.

They knew fully well, I was gonna die if conditions are just right, so they forcefully brought my mom inside.

She cried, and I cried. She hugged me and I hugged her back. My mom sang me to sleep with a lullaby as she cry slowly.

I couldn't sleep due to her tears, but I tried to do so, if it made her happy. I rest my head peacefully on my mom's lap as she speaks to me.

"Kaijou. I want you to remember my promise to you. Do not do anything that can take the life of someone. Remember, they also have a family too.."

I closed my eyes and remembers her word in the brief moment of peace. When suddenly, her lullaby stopped and I couldn't feel her arms around me.

I opened my eyes to see my mom being strangled by my father. I was furious, I stepped forward and tried stopping him but it was futile.

I couldn't do anything and watches as my mother gets brutally murdered by my own father. I was enraged. I lunged forward and was kicked by my own father right on the face.

Since my weak condition was still there, his kick has managed to suppress my body from waking up for a few hours.

In the darkness of my mind, I see terrible sights. I saw demons and myself, I saw my mother screaming at me as she is murdered. I saw it all.

But, through that darkness, there was someone accompanying me that looks exactly like me. The entity refused to talk and I didn't talk much to him either.

After that whole darkness inside my mind. I found myself right beside another kid.

"Who.. are you..?"

The kid smirks, and stands up so he could lend a hand for me to stand up too. I took his hand and stood up.

"My name is Sora. Nice to meet you.", Sora says his name, as he cheerfully look at me.

"Nice to meet you too. I'm Kaijou.", I say awkwardly, even though I still remember that sight. I was quite envious of Sora's cheerful and happy attitude. Almost as if, I wanted to make him suffer like I did.

To me, it didn't go against my mother's principle, it was not killing. But just making sure things are equal.

I don't believe humans are equal, but equality comes when human makes a decision to equalise it. That is how I view equality as a whole. It's concept is foolish when compared to other philosophical perspective.

One might argue, humans are only equal since birth, that may be true, because infants cannot make decisions on their own yet. Once humans are aware, they start making decisions to equalise them with other humans and fit in as a whole.

During my mother's time of death, I did act like I wanted to fool my father. I knew when a bright sky is shining, a dark cloud will come with a thunderstorm. I acted my emotions with my judgement, and manages to fool my father, making him believe I don't have emotional control and is just a victim to him.

That is why I thought of equality in humans. Whether they are used to weaken someone's mind or meant to just torture the victim mentally. If humans are equal, why do we serial killers exist? what does killing someone will do? why is killing someone and punishing them by killing them too is justifiable? isn't it just kill the killer? Thus, paradox forms over this unresolved way to deal with killers.

After that, I soon came back to reality and Sora was shaking me.

"Hey! You dozed off for so long!", Sora says while having a slight frown.

"Oh sorry, I was just overthinking."

"Oh, you were? I thought you had other intentions. You just stared at me like you wanted to threaten me something.", Sora says.

Kaijou shakes his head embarassingly. "I didn't meant for that. I just got too deep of my thinking. My apologies."

"Oh, no need, I'm fine with it." Sora raises his hand into a defensive gesture.

"So anyways, what were you thinking off?"

"Nothing, I just thought about things that we could do here.", I made up a believable lie.

"Well, not many. But, we can play those toys." Sora says to me with a cheerful smile.

"Sure, atleast something is there to ease our boredom."

I played toys with Sora, even though it was boring me already, Sora didn't give up and try to make me smile.

"Oh, come on! Why don't you smile atleast once!"

"Sorry. I'm never the type to smile." Even though I say that, I've smiled unconsciously whenever I'm with someone I care about. It's not that I didn't care about him, it's about he hasn't given me a reason to smile.

Suddenly, Sora is grabbed by the instructors. I immediately knew what they were upto and tried to chase after him and save him. Upon me grabbing the instructors clothing, I was hit by am electric surge through a taser. My father tased me to immobalise my movement.

Out of anger, I stand up and lunges forward at my father, as he dodges my attack, I still naively waste energy, and I passed out onto the tiles. During that time, I was put into a cold water chamber alongside Sora. I saw they were brainwashing? I didn't particularly knew at that time what that meant.

During that time, I also didn't remember Sora. An instructor lets me out of the cold water and speaks to me.

"Hello, Kaijou. You see that kid to your right? He is Sora. Your enemy."

My mind was contradicting from other things. I felt like I know Sora, but I forgot. Upon this revelation. I implanted that thought in my mind that Sora is my enemy.