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Frieren: Breaking my natural instincts.

' Why.... Why can't I feel anything? ' I thought as I stare at the cherry syrup in my hand's. I know they're blood but why do I see it as just a fine delicacy. Fire surrounded my wake as I look down at the mangled bags of meat infont of me. They were a family a foolish happy family yet why did I feel that it was just natural. Scenes flash to my head as I remember.... My past life where I was human with a family, friends, life and most important of all.... sympathy. No tears have ever fallen on my eyes as I look at the burning meat filled with clarity. I look at the cherry syrup on my hands before attempting to touch something on my head. There I could feel the rustic yet symmetrical touch of my horn's. With these two memories two souls I can already tell who I am..... " I'm.... a demon in frieren. " ...... Hi I just finished frieren and I got to say it is the best anime I've ever watch so I decided to make a fanfic about it. I'm currently reading the manga so expect to see some parts of the manga in the Future. Also now I'll update Every Saturday ( With occasional two chapters of course )

Jingle303 · อะนิเมะ&มังงะ
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Chapter 3: Practice

P.O.V...

It's been seven months since I started to live in this burrow. Though it's strange that I felt that seven months was like a couple of minutes in my opinion I can already tell my sense of time has already altered. I don't know if I should call this a good thing or a bad thing since with this new perception of time I could already forget a few short moments that I could considered precious.

I'm almost scared that sooner or later my memories of my previous life will be lost in time though to my altered right cortex. I thought while I sat on top at the twisted tree on top of the burrow my temporary home, closing my eyes as I try to set my mind off to the inevitability of one day losing who I am.

The sun felt nice for a change as the bird's sing there songs to the forest. 

" Growl.... "

" Sigh how annoying.... "

I couldn't help but to show my annoyance to my stomach as I look at the bird's who didn't seem to notice my pressence on the tree. There oblivious considering that my mana is now hidden from there danger sense and instict's.

Though the mana stability is increadibly obvious it's the least I could work with. Soon I release my mana slowly as it reach to the bird's and stop at the end of the tree branch. the bird's didn't fly away instead they turn their heads towards me, looking at me with full curiosity before flying on top of my head and shoulders.

" Flap Flap Flap! "

" Twit twit "

More and more came as soon as their in reach of my mana. I raise my finger for a bird to land on my index seemingly oblivious but cheerful. I didn't feel any sort of adoration against these small little bag's of meat as I grab the one on my finger tips and chew off it's head. 

It's mushed tissue, flesh and crushed bone's where a little bland but nonetheless I didn't complain. I'm planning to get back at my original self so I will not eat any human's anyway.

The sound of fleshed being chewed to my sharp teeth didn't bother the bird's, Why should they be I made sure to change there danger sense and animalistic instict's so that it would be normal for them to see such a sight. 

As well as to not mind that I was going to eat them at least. 

It was yet again a bland lunch as I finish off the last bird before I retracted my mana back to myself. I only let a small portion of my mana to my finger before moving my finger up the back of my head and let my magic wonder to my brain.

Creating my magic was successful but it still needs some refinement. After spending three months or two observing animals brain's and even some alive one's as well I get to have some understanding of how the brain works.

I experimented it on bird's, fawn's, hare's and even some wolve's that I manage to fend off. By visualizing my mana to be a somewhat false signal of a brain like neotransmitter I could easily control how some animal's brain's function.

Like there behavior, instict's, there sense of danger, the way they think everything. I was successful at applying this to bird's and small time animals but animals like wolve's and any other predatory animal's are something I could barely take control of.

Oh and magical creature's? There brain's are pretty alien to me since I have no idea how there brain's look or function. Overall my magic's limitation are that I need to put my mana on there head's and I must know how certain living organisms brain's work.

A pretty unreliable mental magic but I don't care. I don't care if it is weak my only concern if I can get myself back together once I fully change though to time. 

Soon my mana creeped in my brain as I try to find a way to change how my brain chemistry work. I tried looking even sometimes forcing my way out just to find where's the part of my brain that controls my instinct's. 

My brain felt like a maze as there are so many unfamiliar places that I couldn't understand. Eventually I just give up and let my mana dissapear. 

" Just as the last time nothing. "

Well what should I expect I barely even get to understand how a demon's brain works so failure is inevitable. Though I got to say I'm really improving at invading the minds of others.

Though last month was a failing attempt that I could barely even put my mana to my brain now I can now pry to my own mind with little effort.

My only weakness is understanding and information. I couldn't help but to smile at my progress, Though happiness was a relatively weird concept for me I could still feel some basic emotions at least.

I let myself fall from the tree and walk to the forest. My mind prying magic still needs some work so I decided to practice with some if the animals in this forest. 

I let my mana wonder at every corner so that I could feel the pressence of any living being near me. My improvement is slow as it bother me, I made sure remind myself that time is running out so that I won't be trapped by my instincts long perception of time.

After all my human sense of time is slowly fading as I want to make sure that I refine my skills at putting my mana into the minds of living beings before my original sense time fade's into obscurity.