As much as she wants him? Sumire repeated those words in her head and frowned. It is hard to measure another person's desires. Nobody can truly understand somebody else's longing. Longing for another person to the point of deprivation, craving for them so badly and yet not being able to get them. Since she realized she fell in love with Terashima Yuhi, she suffered a lot.
It was strange, falling in love with him.
She fell in love with him shortly after their first meeting, so it was difficult for her. When she realized she loved him, she wanted to see Yuhi every single day. But she couldn't, she had to control herself. She didn't write that note half heartily. She will see him once she has made a name for herself, until then she must refrain from meeting him.
It was difficult for her but she survived so long and coped with the pain and longing. But now that she has learned his warmth, it will be difficult for her.
"So you know what I was thinking?"