chapter 1: CITY OF XHAN

princess Shashi you look beautiful in your dress, oh my goodness, you were specially created to become a princess, your Royal robe, it really suit you, the palace minister said

Why are they all leaving me in Dilema, why am lost am not getting it, always been praised, it really hurt, when they know fully when am ugly, and go mad likewise sometimes, why?, I find myself crying out aloud

who will ever love me, care for me, I wish dad did not do this I wish dad did not fall into this Depth I wouldn't have been in this mess, crying for help, shouting for help seems antagonising, I wish I could be able to cast the spell holding me down, people were right, schoolers were right, their words are right, """children's shall pay for their father sin""", I thought it was fun, I thought it was fury words, now it had landed on me in plain

I can't even walk to the village square without hiding my face, many people mock me, the Throne is as stake, my life is as well same

oh gods of Xhan, take off this curse from me, I can't live any longer to be a shadow of myself, not even a glare, attention or affection have I ever gain, all I get was my birth, the regrets of my existing, the regret of my father deed

my mother died while giving birth to me, I get a burnt from childhood and a blindness from childbirth, are they not enough reason my existence should be cease, I wonder how, and what are the crimes of innocent people trying to protect their people, but the story is beginning to confuse me

Did king Zahir really commit Atrocities?, I wish dad could be able to talk, he would have tell me every thing in details, my dad seem to be innocent of this accusations but still I can't stand the chances, have received enough maltreatment from king intern Zachir, he is gonna found every means to erase every obstacle against the throne, but dad am sorry, I can't be there for you, bye

Oh city of XHAN, I can't bear to live any longer with this thing I called a self, I am a disappointment to myself, my parents and great City of XHAN, I have to go, I have to go, I said arranging the rope on the hullus tree and a stood beneath it

Bye, I pray for fortunes and great ordeal to the greatest City of XHAN, wish you all an everlasting life