Bab 54

Musim peperiksaan semakin hampir, kami semua sibuk mengulangkaji dan buat 'group discussion'. Tinggal 2 sem sahaja lagi sebelum kami tamat pengajian. Library sudah menjadi rumah kedua kami. Kami meluangkan masa mengulangkaji di library hingga lewat malam.

Kami semua gementar kerana takut untuk menghadapi peperiksaan ini. Ada yang tertekan namun ada yang tenang. Sesiapa yang inginkan bantuan, akan rujuk Johan dan Qistina kerana mereka yang paling perform dalam kalangan kami.

Sarah tidak makan seharian kerana terlalu tekun belajar. Masa aku dan yang lain ke kafeteria, dia tak nak ikut. Katanya tak lapar. Aku dan Qistina risau kalau jadi apa-apa dekat dia. Selalunya Sarah kalau bab makan nombor satu. Tapi kali ni, Sarah jadi nervous dan panic, takut dia tak pass exam kali ni.

"Argh!" Sarah mengaduh. Kami semua berpaling ke arahnya.

"Kenapa, Sarah???" Tanya aku dan Qistina, risau.

"Saya rasa saya gastrik lah..." Katanya sambil mengerutkan muka, menahan sakit.

"Tu lah, tadi kitorang ajak makan tak nak. Sehari tau awak tak makan. Tengok dah gastrik. Kalau jadi apa-apa kan susah..." Marah Qistina. Marah kerana sayang.

"Hehehe... Sorry." Sarah hanya tersenyum kelat dan mengakui kesalahannya. Aku menyelongkar totebag kepunyaanku. Aku mencapai sebungkus roti dan menghulurkannya kepada Sarah. Sarah mencapai huluranku.

"Thanks Nayli my savior. Nayli ni macam Doraemon lah. Macam-macam ada dalam beg dia." Seloroh Sarah. Aku hanya tersenyum kecil.

"Nah, minum lah air kita dulu." Pelawaku, dan meletakkan air kotak yang belum dibuka itu di depan Sarah. Sarah mengangguk dan terus mengunyah roti itu kerana kelaparan.

"Weh korang. Kalau aku tak pass exam ni macam mana?" Tanya Sarah.

"Ketinggalan lah kau, kena retake exam. Padan muka." Kata Haizeq. Sarah menjeling ke arah Haizeq.

"Awak ni... Takdenya awak fail. You can do it lah Sarah. Believe in yourself, okay?" Kataku, menasihatinya.

"Awwwhhh... Okay. Thanks for that Nay." Ucap Sarah.

"Mia, Mia, Miaaaa... Can you help me with this question?" Tanya Haizeq yang berada di hadapanku.

"Let me see... Oh yang ni. Jap nak recall balik. Okay..." Aku explain apa yang aku faham kepada Haizeq dan cara untuk menyelesaikan soalan tersebut.

"Betul kan, Eiman macam ni?" Tanyaku kepada Eiman yang berada di sebelah Haizeq dan memberi perhatian kepada ulasanku. Eiman mengangguk. Tiba-tiba terdengar esakan. Aku berpaling ke arah Qistina. Kelihatan Johan sedang memujuknya. Aku bergegas ke arah Qistina begitu juga Sarah.

"Kita rasa kita tak boleh score lah exam kali ni... Kita rasa macam blank and tak tahu apa-apa yang dah belajar. Dah banyak kali dah kita cuba fahamkan tajuk ni, but still tak faham. Hazrel pun dah explain dekat kita banyak kali. But still..." Qistina sudah teresak tanpa sempat menghabiskan ayatnya. Dia kecewa akan dirinya. Aku dan Sarah mengusap-usap Qistina. Selalunya Qistina tak macam ni.

"Qis, don't be like that. That's normal. Everyone went through that phase. Now, relax. Take a deep breath." Ujar Johan. Tangisan Qistina sudah reda.

"Why don't we take a break? Let's take some fresh air pastu balik. Lagipun dah malam ni. Esok boleh sambung lagi." Cadang Eiman. Kami bersetuju.

"Dah dah, Qis. Jangan sedih-sedih okay? Jom kita pergi tenangkan fikiran dulu." Ajak Sarah. Qistina mengangguk. Kami mengemas barang bersedia untuk balik.

Kami ke Bell Tower, tempat lepak kami pada waktu malam. Kami menghirup udara yang segar. Benar, udara segar pada waktu malam di Perth ni sungguh menenangkan fikiran dan jiwa. Johan dan Haizeq pergi membeli air untuk kami sementara kami duduk di bangku melihat Bell Tower yang berlampu menghiasi malam itu.

Eiman mengambil tempat di sebelahku.

"You know what, I'm finally getting over my ex" beritahu Eiman kepadaku.

"Oh really? That's good." Ujarku, senang hati.

"Selalunya aku senang je move on kalau break up with anyone. But with her, it took me a year to move on." Ceritanya.

"You must loved her so much, am I right?" Tanyaku.

"Maybe. She's the first one who treated me right. But she left me too." Ujarnya. Eiman menundukkan kepalanya. Aku memandangnya.

"Tapi kan, why did she left you? I mean, I believe you treated her right too. If I was her, I wouldn't leave you. You got that looks, you're smart and kind hearted. I can't think of the reason why she chose to leave you." Ulasku. Eiman tersenyum mendengar kata-kataku.

"I think she loses feelings towards me. You know, people can change." Jawabnya pula.

"Well, I don't know. I've never been in a relationship." Kataku.

"What? You've never been in a relationship???" Tanya Eiman, tidak percaya.

"Yes! Why, you didn't believe me?" Tanya aku pula. Eiman tergelak.

"No... It's hard to believe. But why? You cantik apa? Or ada orang confess, tapi you yang reject diorang. Am I right?" Teka Eiman.

"Hmmm... Ada la seorang dua yang confess dulu masa sekolah. And yes, you're right. I rejected them. One sebab nak focus on studies, two sebab they're not my taste, three, one of them are younger than me. So I decided not to accept them." Ceritaku. Eiman tergelak.

"So, you're anti-romantic lah?" Tanya Eiman lagi.

"Well, that's wrong. I love reading romance novels, watch romance movies, write romance stories. And I would like to be in a relationship with someone, but I don't have any plan on that for now. But still, I wish I could at least get a man in my life." Ujarku. Eiman mengangguk faham sambil tersenyum mendengar olahanku.

"So, you takde crush kat anyone ke?" Tanya Eiman.

"I'm not sure." Jawabku, ringkas. Tak nak bagitahu yang aku suka Haizeq dari dulu.

"You're not sure??? Hmmm... Sounds fishy." Eiman memandangku penuh maksud. Aku buat tak tahu dan tertawa sahaja.

Haizeq dan Johan kelihatan berjalan ke arah kami sambil memegang plastik berisikan air. Johan terus ke arah Qistina yang hanya berdiam diri di samping Sarah dari tadi. Sarah bangun dan menghampiri aku, Eiman dan Haizeq. Dia ingin memberi ruang kepada Johan dan Qistina.

"Lamanya pergi beli air." Komen Sarah.

"Nak cepat pergi beli sendiri lah." Balas Haizeq. Sarah menjelirkan lidah. Diorang ni kalau tak gaduh tak sah.

"Mia, nah. Your fav drink." Haizeq menghulurkan sebotol minuman kepadaku sambil mengenyitkan mata.

"Yeay, thanks! You know too well." Pujiku.

"Of course!" Balas Haizeq.

"Oh yeah Sarah. Qis dah okay ke?" Tanyaku.

"Dah, tapi kita rasa dia still needs more time untuk betul-betul okay. Dia nervous kot. Yelah, dia mana pernah tak score in any exam pun. Kita dah tenangkan dia tadi, now bagi Johan lah pulak pujuk dia. Nanti okay lah tu." Ulas Sarah. Aku mengangguk, setuju.

"Tak pernah pernah aku tengok Qistina macam tu." Komen Haizeq.

"Yeah, Qis jarang nangis. Aku pun terkejut masa dia breakdown tadi." Balasku.

"I think she pressured herself to do well in this exam kot. I guess it's better to advice her not to pushing herself so hard." Cadang Eiman. Kami setuju.

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"How are you? How do you feel right now?" Tanya Johan kepada Qistina.

"I don't know. Maybe better but I'm still disappointed of myself. I'm scared that I wouldn't pass this exam cause I messed up my studies." Keluh Qistina.

"No, don't say that. I believe you can do well this time, just like your previous exam. Now, take some fresh air. Don't doubt yourself, okay? You have to believe in yourself to success." Nasihat Johan. Qistina menghadam kata-kata Johan. Dia mengangguk perlahan dan mula tersenyum kecil. Dia menerima nasihat itu dengan hati yang terbuka.

"You know what? I used to get bad grades too during highschool. Masa tu saya tak minat sangat nak belajar. All I think about that time is to have fun. I selalu main game, skipped classes and I have this one girl that I used to have feelings for and I followed her all the time. One day, she scolded me. She got tired of me following her everywhere. And then, she said she didn't like me because I'm not smart and have bad grades and all I do was just fooling around. Those words hurt me and I decided to change myself and move on from her. Kalau bukan sebab dia, mungkin I'm not as good as I am right now, and mungkin I tak jumpa you." Cerita Johan. Qistina terkelu.

"Wah... What an inspiring story." Kata Qistina sambil tergelak kecil. Johan lega akhirnya dia dapat mendengar tawa Qistina kembali.

"Nakal jugak awak ni eh. I didn't know you were so bold. Sampai ikut that girl everywhere." Komen Qistina. Johan tergelak.

"Do you feel better now?" Tanya Johan.

"Yes. Thank you, my Hazrel." Ucap Qistina, ikhlas. Johan tersenyum lebar. 'My Hazrel??? Oh my god!' jerit Johan dalam hati. Gembira bukan main.

"If you need help, just come to me. I'm always by your side if you need anything." Luah Johan sambil tersenyum melihat Qistina. Qistina turut tersenyum.

"Thank you. I will." Balas Qistina. Dia menghirup air yang diberi oleh Johan sambil melemparkan pandangan ke arah Bell Tower. Dia perlu menenangkan fikirannya untuk belajar. Kalau tak, tak boleh fokus, asyik gugup dan rasa diri tidak cukup berusaha.

"Lepas exam kita pergi somewhere nak?" Cadang Johan.

"Somewhere? Pergi mana???" Tanya Qistina.

"Not sure yet. But just the two of us?" Balas Johan.

"Hmmm..." Qistina tidak memberi jawapan.

"It's okay, kalau awak tak nak. I understand if you're still not ready. But I'll wait for you." Kata Johan. Qistina tersenyum kecil. Johan sangat memahaminya. Tidak seperti lelaki lain, tergesa-gesa.

"I'll think about that first, okay? Saya mungkin kena mintak my parents' permission first." Ujar Qistina. Johan tersenyum dan mengangguk faham.

"Okay!" Balas Johan.