Chapter -1

OK, that's all for today. See you all tomorrow. Our maths teacher left the class after the bell

It was so boring that I almost fell asleep. And the worst part is that, it's only the end of the second period, and we have two more classes to go.

I hate this. I groaned and fell asleep on my bench.

Why are you looking so tired today? My bench mate Joshna was looking at me with a small smile

I don't know, but I'm feeling so tired today, I said again falling back into sleep.

Not after a minute later, I heard footsteps and my sleep flew out of the window.

Everyone in the class immediately stood up to greet the professor and also our hod sir for our department

Our professor may look gentle from outside, but he is very strict and not someone who we can mess with

After he started the lecture, everyone began to take their books and started to take notes.

After 2 long hours, we finally got our lunch break. As I don't talk to anyone because I don't find the same interests they have in me as well as them.so I have my lunch alone.

During lunch, my mom would call me to know how I'm doing, and I do the same.

I have a pretty boring life if I'm being honest. I have only my best friend Sweety, and she's studying B. Pharmacy while me studying Engineering

Despite our busy schedules, we are only able to talk to her about two times a month.

Not only that, but I want to talk to them, but it's just that I'm socially awkward and also a bit arrogant to talk first, so I always left on my own.

My grades are also average, so it gives them one more reason to ignore me.

All of my classmates are nice and if I need any aid they try their best to solve it. And that's all

After a painfully slow day, the classes finally over, and now it's time to go home.

I don't know, but everyone in my class packs their bags at lightning speed and just dash out of the class like their pants on fire. I have no idea they all work for the president!! (note the sarcasm)

Before you start to defend them saying that maybe they have jobs to do or some important tasks, then let me tell you that everyone in my class just gossips under the college garden and canteens.

But I always take my time packing my bag and going out of my class to head home.

It was slowly setting as I watched some boys playing basketball, while others talked in a relaxed manner. Every day this scene made me happy as I slowly walked towards the entrance of the college and saw many students talk and chat on the sideways.

It makes me feel so old, like a grandma who just experienced everything in her life.

I went to the bus stop and there were already at least 50 people waiting for the bus. This is a routine sight for me and I hate it. I don't want to push and kick somebody just to get on the bus and return home early.

But I have to because I don't like waiting and if I miss the first then I have to wait another half an hour for the second bus to arrive, and I definitely don't want that.

Soon I reached home and crashed on the sofa as I took deep breaths. College is exhausting. I don't know if I can survive till the final year?

I'm all alone in my house. Dad and mom have not returned yet; they'll be home by 6.30pm. I slowly got up and placed my bag in its usual place and went to freshen up. After that I went to the kitchen and made myself a hot cup of black coffee. I like the bitter flavour of it. I sat on the sofa and started to watch TV while sipping my coffee.

I don't have any siblings as I wanted my parents to love only me and I don't like sharing their love with anyone. They are precious to me. And it makes me feel like a psychopath, but who cares?

I'm a super lazy person. I don't like to do any work, and just like to lay in bed and use my phone. But if I do that then the next second mom starts to spit fire at me for still acting like a child and not like an adult.

She consistently worries about what happens when I enter my in-law's home, saying I'll get kicked out the next day.

My mom always calls me stone hearted because of my ignorance to literally everything.

Which I agree with. Maybe it's because of my lack of interaction with people. I only talk to my mom, dad, and my friend, and I hardly ever talk in class, only when I need something or want to know something. I also talk less with my blood relatives, and they always call me mute. Which I care less about.

Mom doesn't let me go anywhere because she thinks that I'll get kidnapped or something as an only child. She treasures me so much. The only thing I want to do is travel to different places and enjoy life for a while.

Hopefully, God will fulfil my wish. I'm on the verge of going crazy due to boredom. I want some change. Not only that, but I just wake up, go to college, return from college, eat and sleep and repeat.

I exhaled as I know that I have the same problem as the 90% of girls in this world and everyone relates to this problem. So we often treasure the beautiful memories we spend in our lives.

While I'm thinking about all of these, I didn't realise that the sun had already set, and it's already dark outside.

I opened my laptop and started doing my homework and only stopped when I saw that mom and dad returned home.

The exhausted mom came and sat beside me with a tired look on her face, is the work hard today?

She nodded, and I went to the kitchen to give her a glass of water. After that, mom cooked dinner and after supper I went for a walk on the rooftop to digest my food. Stargazing always brings me peace, but we can't do it in the cities because of pollution and fog hiding the stars.

As I stare at the stars, I can't help but wonder how beautiful they are. I can sit and watch this scene for many hours.

I don't know, but I feel like they are looking shinier than I normally watch them.

After walking around the rooftop for a few more minutes, I went back to my room and started doing my remaining work, but got distracted by a YouTube video and ended up procrastinating. I sighed, closed my laptop and looked at the time, only to see that 1 o'clock and midnight had passed.

Fuck, it's too late, I think I won't be getting any extra sleep tonight

Mom and dad were already snoring for God knows how long, and I went back to my room, switched off my lights and went to bed.

As I laid on my bed, my muscles started to relax, and it felt like heaven. I love this feeling.

I cocooned in my blanket and fell asleep quickly due to my fatigue.